life.living it

finding maself

2010-12-03T12:12:00.000-08:00

I dun care wateva it is..i am gna be strong..wateva is it shall be personal..nt gna let all these stuff affect ma mood wen i am out nd all..gng to enjoy..shall be strong nd deal wateva tat comes ma way..no more running away or escaping or brushing it under the carpet..ready to move on nd gna persist once i hav decide wat the truth is..i hav ma close frenz nd tats all i need.nd they r the only ppl tat knows the truth nd the only ppl who needs to noe..takin 1 step at a time..i will find ma way once again..COS BELINDA NEVER gives up or says die...i will pick maself up nd walk with full confidence nd upright nt afraid or embarrassed.all i cn say is belinda will be BACK!!

Shattered

2010-12-03T10:31:00.000-08:00

hey,i noe i am blogging aft so long.idk jus felt like blogging again once again..too frustrated.i wonder y is thr always a routine or a pattern ta ppl wld follow.like wen they lose smth they will tend to do these certain thing to try nd get back wat they hav lost.however they dun realise tat the more they do the more they lose.i am jus annoyed by the fact that thr always has to be some drama..once things r gng well,some drama has to start..i realli dun understand y..

1 ting i am sure is i realli realli miss u so much..nd i so wished tat we had tok tings out.we jus left things like tat..u dun even noe wat was wrong nd i bet u dint reflect nd still wondering wat was wrong.but recently u hav change so so much tat i dun even noe who u r alr..looking for the 1 i loved.hating the new u...the way u r,the way u tok.

1 thing i am so upset abt is tat tis end of yr realli is kind shattering mi inside bit by bit..in 1 month so so much has happen..the person i tot knew mi disappointed mi so so much..claiming to be who u r,u cnt even rmb things abt mi..u dun even noe mi..if u say i am like tat then wat r u??hav u tot abt tat..saying who u r hav u eva abt mi at all or was it all abt u only??i made u ma everyting,helped u,thr 4 u wen u called nd everyting but u left mi nth at all..it hurts so much u noe wat happened nd wat u did..i dint expect tis fr u..i have seen u do tis to ppl but nvr tot to mi..cos in a way i looked up to u..but guess i was totally nd utterly wrong.still so lost for words..

1 more ting i am so freaking upset abt was wat happens wen everyting tat u believe in turns out to be all a lie...lie lie lie..i realli dunno wat to say abt tis..i jus wna 4get everyting every single god damn ting..i wish i cld turn back time nd nvr wen for the party..cos u guys r all fakes..fakes fakes...liars liars..i cnt believe wat it..srsly i realli tot u were the most geninue 1..believed every word u said.but nw i find out tat u lied to mi..so unexpected..totally lost right nw...who to believe,whether the words u say r truth..i dint ask u once only..the only standing brick jus collasp..i was honest wif u guys,y cnt u guys do the same..i am realli upset wif u..i realli dun wan to tok abt it or tink abt it or face tis eva again...all will be 4gotten like a bad dream.take care and gdbye to u guys.hope u guys realli find the gals u deserve..tak it as i nvr existence nd i vanish into thin air,disappear..

I realli wna thx aida,kav,nas,ken,sangar,bay nd wc for being thr for u...u guys r realli darlings..I LOVE LOVE U GUYS LOADS!!BFFs FOREVA OK!!promise=)

2010-05-31T02:33:00.000-07:00

hey peeps finally going to update ma blog..haha..been a busy yr..what more a busy wk..haha..sigh sigh...days are passing realli fast..things r pretty much being rush through..haha..whhheee...anyway ha i wan a fossil watch!!!haha..omg freaky tired...stupid construction work 8 am in the morning start making such a din.aaahhh cnt even slp properly..hmm if only like last time cn crash jes hse.haha its so noise nw here..all the way til 5.30!!sian..haha...super tired nd moody lo..but still making the effort to remain as normal..life still has 2 go on.haha..anyway uncle's bbq yst was super fun nd funny..leslie is like super strong nd crazy tgt wif wc..haha..gna stop here now i guess...will continue tmr or smth.=)

2010-04-11T01:07:00.000-07:00

heyya ppl,kk guess i am enjoying the hols.like seriously..
haha...fri was a blast.
sat was gr8 too.woke up at like 1 like tat.head felt heavy but who cares haha...then ate roti prata..daddy brought mi for breakfast but it turned out 2 be ma lunch.haha...opps..then wen temple abt 2 plus.till abt 4 plus..haha while mummy was praying mi nd daddy were tokin nonsense at the langar hall..haha..then aft that papa was nice enuff to drop mi at btp.reach abt 4 plus 5 i guess...by the time i reach iffy,leon nd mimi were alr thr..haha...they alr started plying pool.so we joined in...leon was like on a winning streak..but we did win iffy nd leon 2 times.haha...i won bay in a game..haha..we were suppose 2 head 2 chinatown by 6.30 to watch yuresh gig but guess we were kinda late nd still delaying..anyway leslie said he was at bugis so we tld him to mit us nd yuresh 2..journey thr was kinda long.otw leslie said he was otw home alr nd yuresh said it was ok..we were otw alr so might as well jus go...we had the kfc family fest.haha...family fest...hehe...was so full aft that...haha..anyway we saw humpty dumpty near the kfc..haha..those that were thr wld noe wat i am tokin abt...haha..then thr were these few indo kid making so much noise...nd guess wat i saw the timezone regulars too..aft eating we actualli wanted 2 walk arnd but then decided to go sheesha..haha..we wen to whr yuresh say he used to go...merdandy..then so we tried imran recommendation which was nt bad kinda nice...haha..while we were sheesha-ing we talked abt so much nonsense nd watsoeva...omg...stayed thr till abt 11 like tat..we all walked back to laselle busstop waited till their buses came then i left to home...parents angry cos i everyday keep coming home late..oh welll its the hols..pls give in a lil...haha...i realli find facebook realli useful nd effective nd efficient..vishal aka billy bombers guy has been texting mi since 2 plus wen i gave him ma no..tat is fast..like seriously...anyway back to ma disney channel now..wizard of wavely place...ciaoz!!cya....=)

2010-04-09T03:10:00.000-07:00

hey hey peeps...its been a long time since i last blog.haha...been busy la..haha
anyway the hols felt long at the same time felt short.i still have a no of tings i still wna do...like
1.go donut factory and eat...hail to their donut.yumyum
2.go underwater world,luge..awesome
3.i wna watch hurt locker nd mongca nd ju-on..muahaha...
4.go changi airport...strange but yea
5.go redhouse...wooohhooo scary
6.go bowling
7.go k-ing again
and the rest wen i tink of it.so far its these few...

anyway tonite gng 2 monkey bar.watching kumar performance..cool cnt wait..then gng attica.apparently according to kiran jeetin spins at krish nw..rite..1 by 1 ah.. quite happy nd excited since i hav nt been 2 either 1..yup.tats it for nw...will catch up some other time..ciaoz=)

2010-01-31T03:32:00.000-08:00

i have been moody tis few days.so f-ing pissed wif certain ppl.they jus tink tat things revolve arnd them only nd ppl hav 2 cater to them.wth..so annoyed...aaahhhh...jus so tired of these ppl being like tat.dun worry i cn leave without u.tis few days has been thinking days 4 mi.i have decided i am nt gna be a selfish person anymore.nd perharps it is time to 4give nd 4get.lets jus c how tat goes.anyway,once everyting is settled,i am gna do wat i wan.on the selfish part i am nt gna keep baby to maself instead i will limit maself to c-ing him only abt 3 times a wk only.the rest of the days wld be for him 2 spend wif his frenz.nd it is a must.i dun wan to sound like the bad guy,denying him of his frenz.been feeling realli terrible tis few days.ma ear hurts like crazy nd i keep having headache nd cramps.aahhh....so tired.

i was tinkin maybe i wna be away on ma bdae.overseas,away fr here.relax, CHILLING.nd jus takin a break without any1 nd all...jus alone.peace nd quiet.

ppl all r like horses they all tink in 1 point of view no room for if,maybe or a reason or explanation y smth is the way it is.conclusion r jumped to.it gets annoying aft awhile nd u jus tend go hmm yea oh sry ok thx.cos u cant be bothered anymore.idk y..but i jus feel tired.wish i cld fast forward in life.i wna do well.be realli weel off nd show them wat i am worth,payback hw they treated mi.

head hurts.am gna go off 2 rest.take care hav fun..nd happy bdae SAM=)!!!haha

2010-01-21T09:33:00.000-08:00

heyhey....2day pon school in the morning to hav breakfast wif kh.nd yessss....we had the kfc waffles omg yay finally..then headed to school for POA omg tink i gna flunk the test.tutorial was so slack.then did the feedback.dint expect 2 end so early.apparently carol nd delfin jacked mi 2day.anyway it rained heavily but thank god during my practical lesson it was nt.lesson 2day again was like slack jus drive arnd amk AGAIN!!sian alr...

anyway am toking to kh abt his bro nw.the more i comfort his the more i feel god was unfair.he shld hav let mi go wen i wanted 2 nd nt bring ma parents so much nonsense.i hav done so much more worst then him.infact i actualli tink cos of those tings mi nd ma eldest bro r like tat.cos kh was like him.instead kh said if punching him wld wake him up i guess i cn understand wat sukh tot wen he did tat 2 mi.but dun tink it is a gd idea.if u cn c nw.SO SO SO much more i have done yet i hav been punished so lil...i deserve to be hanged or smth.wat kind of daughter,sister am i.yet..jus tis minor cases cn make kh so mad.i cant imagine ma parents nd ma bros.wat they are tinkin of mi...i dun dare to tink.i feel like i shld nt even be here.idk wat else 2 say.suddenly feel so lose.like everyting jus hitting mi back once more.Flashback.anyway....kh i tink u shld jus be patience wif ur bro...hang out wif him then tok 2 him..explain things 2 him.he is nt as bad as u tink.tink wif a calm mind nd nt wen u r full of anger...learn 2 understand him nd all.no matter wat u guys r a family nd will stick tgt as a family.family are oso like couples.u guys quarrel,'break-Up'in family terms would be nt tok 2 each other.but jus tink hw long will more do u guys hav tgt being like tis...u all gna be 21 tis yr then few yrs u 2will be married nd move away nd in a yr only hw many times then will mit up.it wont be the same anymore.tink it over k.no 1 is perfect nd no 1 cn read minds.

Song of the day:simple plan-Perfect(love tis song cos it bring tears 2 ma eyes)

2010-01-18T06:19:00.000-08:00

idk wats wrong...but thr certainly is weirdness..if tis is hw things is gna be aft everything then fine by mi..i respect ur choice nd will give u ur space.jus take care of urself nd rest well pls.anyway moving on to 2day.
2day was like nas's jeaolous day..haha..she jeolous tat i have a bf then jealous i always spend time wif him.haha then jealous i finish ma econs alr...haha dunno y we keep jacking each other.then she jealous cos gt these few guys walked by pass us then 1 of them tld the other eh the red 1 nt bad in malay then nas was like wth then she tld mi..then i say y u jealous ah..haha then she was like aaahhh wateva la u blah blah blah blah...hahaa..funny sia.then she walk pass then nd say i dun need to be jealous of u cos og guys HUH!!haha like purposely to them it was realli funny u has 2 be thr.had POM presentation this morning.every1 dint 1 their apples so it was mostly the guys eating the apples.then i had 3 hrs off break.omg haha..then had POM lecture which ended early oso but mr tan wanted to c us.stay in school til 5.50 helpin nas wif her work.then headed to ssdc for the drving lesson.did vertical parking.so-so nt bad.then jus drive arnd again.BORING!!!haha aft lesson i expected smth but perharps i was totally wrong.i had ma hopes up the whole day tat u wld appear but no.nd the whole day is like being forced on u.then i had 2 go back blk E cos i left ma lappie thr wif nas.i stayed on watched the dance nd all..wei yee is crazy.haha watch their dance like watchin comedy like tat.haha..funny.left abt 9.reached home like 9.30-9.40.yup ate nd watching supernatural.yay....whhheee...busy busy wk.a team installation reharsal tmr then wed is installation nd effective test then thur gt POA test nd driving...OMG!!!die liao.

2010-01-17T06:59:00.000-08:00

heyhey...it has been long since i last posted.anyway...its been up nd down...until still nt realli talkin to any1 at home.keeping mute..emo-ish...rushing thru projs nd doing work nd all...well nw i hav 1 more problem 2 had...i hav 2 mak a decision..i dunno wat to 2.hw 2 choose.i cant deceive maself anymore.lie or keep hiding it.its enuff...but still idk hw...i dun wan 2 lose either 1.but then.HOW HOW HOW!!!
anyway bay's bdae was a BBBBBBBBLLLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!super duper uuuuuber FFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNNNN....yupyup..so glad she enjoyed it.

2010-01-05T10:01:00.000-08:00

heyhey ppl,hope u guys r enjoying ur 2010,unlike mi.my tis yr seem 2 hav started of as bad as last yr.i was so so happy on tis day..new day new yr...had plans wanted 2 enjoy nd make it much betta than last.so at least i cn 4get wat happen the last 1.cos i cn rmb everyting every single the like it was yst.apparently i am nt the only 1 who rmb..tat i was amazed at.ppl start of the new yr on a happy keys but guess wat mine was the total opposite.i started it off by bleeding maself dry,drowning maself in tears nd to a unspeakable/mute yr.i cnt believe it.how much i hate it so much.hw much i wish to diappear fr this world,vanish into thin air,go missing.i seem to have lost everything.well,i have been gd at tat only i guess.slowly losing friends.1 by 1.then losing in relationships.then lost my dearest eldest bro.then lost ma relatives 1-by 1.then lost ma job,concentration,focus,aim.nw,lost m only bro left nd maybe ma parents.Jus seem 2 hav lost so much more then i hav gt back in return.So much has happened.i jus dunno wat 2 do or say anymore.jus really wish i cld scream nd shout.i wna be heard.but it will nvr happen.so right nw,jus left mi alone.let mi cry cry cry...until ma tears run dry.So much i hav done.the more i try nd hold on 2 tings tighter the more it seems 2 be slipping away.i feel like hurting maself more cos the pain i put on maself is nth compare to wat i hav gone thru nd am gng thru.I DUNNO WAT TO DO.i wna run away fr all of tis.the hand tat wants to hold mi thru isn’t strong enought yet the 1 tat is,i am afraid 2 hold.i feel unless nd helpless.. all i am capable of is crying nd slping.how much more pathetic cn i get.but i really dunno wat 2 do or say anymore.feel like jus turning mute 2 the whole world.not wanting to answer or reply 2 any1.dun wan 2 tok 2 any1 abt these thing.
Hope ma parents nd bro is happy 2 c mi bleeding nd watching tears roll down ma face nite aft nite.i am shaken by u,but ...idk.i cant leave him nd u seem 2 gd 2 be truth.idk idk idk.....i am jus so upset nd so shaken by everyting.so confused...so much has changed...SO SO MUCH!!gng away fr who i am.contradicting maself over nd over again.enough is enough.
i dun wish things 2 carry on like tis at the same time dun wish 2 give up. But i am so alone...tats it i have gt 2 say i dun wish to talk abt tis if u c mi outside.it wld be the last ting i wna tok abt.anyway tis wk still kinda is hols 4 mi cos of the whole open hse nd everyting...but still busy here nd thr.anyway wateva it is smilez brightens every1 days.so rmb 2 keep smiling always. yup really tired alr...i guess i gna go slp nw.nitez.cheers=)

2009-12-17T20:45:00.000-08:00

heyhey....mon was driving again...tis time it was soso very fun...it was the instructor i like..haha...anyway silly boy waitied for mi til ma driving ended nd send mi home.i showed him the instructor tat i dun like.nd i cn finally conclude i every lesson definitely 100% will confirm c him 1.haha..then it was tue..quite slack..haha aft which hubby came 2 fetch mi wanted watch movie it was raining so dint go amk then wen ps but was freaking pack so wen vivo...haha..but then we realise thr wasnt realli nice movie showing so we jus walked arnd look, c.yup then we talk nd all...feel betta then it was tap tap revenge 2 battle..i kept winning haha so cool nd gd...then potato chip boy punishment was the 3 things nd pushups!!!hahamuahaha...tat was so funny cos he did once in the harbour front cheers.haha then the nxt time was at little india mrt...haha 10 push up each.yay i rox at tap tap..haha..tat day was soso fun.wed dint go school lazy,anyway stayed home nd study nd slack.thur was stats paper.dieee......haha then the rest of the day was quite slack.gt back accounting paper..cccc i knew it tat thr were so many careless mistakes la...nd tat was all nd the only thing tat costed mi ma marks..otherwise cn get full marks 1 le...damn...silly mi.ahhh...aft school rush back gotta cake sukh cake..which is so so lovely nd beautiful nd taste gr8 too...yup then follow mummy go shop shop she needed get a xmas present for her work xmas party.yup haha...yay nd 2day is fri...LAST DAY of school.so glad...hols r here...although they r nt realli hols but still....+VE haha...ok then tats all must continue doing ma proj..cya cheers bye=)

2009-12-12T09:15:00.000-08:00

heyhey....this wk been like realli movie mania.sun wen shoppin nd stuff wif leslie..was fun...we were like checking gals out..haha then he wen shoppin 4 jackets.crazy brought 3 jacket.then we watched case 39.nt so nice disappointing movie..leslie jacket was so nice to snuggle in..anyway talked to ramalah nd all...haha...funfun...ha...then mon kiran dropped mi then had lunch wif mi, had driving,saw the guy again..sigh.nt so bad la.jus so long aft driving.tue skipped stats lec to bring burbon to the vet.poor fella so sad for him so sry...then dropped him back then kiran drop mi to school..watch new moon.wed was so late cos of kiran but i tink was so worth it cos kiran rode again....so love to be rode to school.then aft tat celebrated DELFIN & YAN ZEN BDAE...happy birthday babes...kk delfin i will bully u less fr nw onwards k haha...then we headed to J8 to watch couple retreat realli nice movie...had fun haha but stomach was like killing mi.then had to study for accounts...paper on thur...thur daddy sent mi to school.so loving tis wk everyday i get rides or drove arnd.so nice...lesson ended earlier then expected.so mi,delfin,erlyn,yz jus slack arnd.i had to stay cos i had lesson..yup...FRI came to school "early" had grp discussion.haha yup then class then grp discussion again..aft which i headed to orchard for botak jones....yay whee.....saw the action guy nd darren again 2nd time for tat day then the cute guy..haha apparently i tink he rmb mi...haha anyway we walked arnd town nd stuff then head home.

Today was a realli fun fun day...laugh so much...wen temple...mi nd mummy were gossiping abt kiran..haha...tsktsk..then came home slack wif every1..dinner was seafood yay cos sukhwant bdae.it was so funny papa nd mummy were like jacking each other...then we join in here nd thr...then met harry nd his bro nd all..he is so so swt...omg...haha...then george crazy 1 msging mi nonsense...haha..then wen mustafa..saw dage...saw cute guy at mustafa too...haha...brought stuff then walk back slowly mummy nd papa still jacking each other so funny then they were tokin abt older days...so nice...at the same time was smsing eileen so long nvr talk to her alr...miss her...yup tmr workin at singtel thr...but dun feel as excited as kinta...i so so very miss workin thr...miss suresh,elf,jason,edwin,fadeeana,marilyn,sam,joseph,jimmy,george,jayden,jeremy,weiqi.....aaaaaaaaaawwwwwww so many of them....miss it so much...sad sad.cant go back oso.
sigh sigh....dunno alot of stuff hav been on ma mind.jus thinkin abt some of them make mi mad.am i gng off track wif ma aim??wat i plan to do wif ma life?am i side tracking.i dun tink i am focus anymore.i feel like i lost it...another ting i hav been thinkin....is tis truth??is tis realli it??thr is so much diff...i am starting to realise tat much we r different we try nd ignore but then out comes more tat makes us different.cnt help but tink...hw??is tis realli gna be it...am i realli sure or am i jus takin 1 step at a time.Tinking abt wat uncle said i realli dunno...so did they win.i am nt sure...cant help but wonder.am i gna stop.i dun wna say anyting i realli dun.am tired of talkin i jus wna sit in a corner nd watch quietly.i hav been betta at helpin nd advising.i miss certain tings..A has been realli swt realli realli the best i hav eva seen but i tink he noes smth..but i dun wna lose him.B seems weird here nd thr.at 1st i tot tat he u noe but then nt...idk but he still seems...C gives alot but i am nt sure is wat i expected nd nt realli rite.D is like wah...haha...nice to hav arnd but theres smth...idk so messed up.lincoln whr hav u been missed u..so long nvr tok le so much to tell u...uncle too..the other r jus minor like nitin nd all tat cn jus play..haha...sounds so evil but yea....hehe cant wait til the hols man...i so wna club club club...damn dint get to go for tis yr ZOuk out...nxt yr then...suppose to wen 18th but aaaaaaahhhhhh...tired gna go nd slp alr
adidoz!!!cya byebye
song of the day=A R Rahman-Sajna

2009-12-03T08:26:00.001-08:00

aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh...............am sick!!sadsad....so lethagic...but anyway 2day so like a relaxing day 4 mi...dint go school!!instead stayed home the whole day..woke up.kiran was talkin 2 to but idk was jus angry wif him 4 some reason.then daddy brought me breakfast then asked mi go c a doc.yup then he wen 2 work.then wen 2 slp woke up ply facebook games,watched tv then suddenly decided 2 make ma spaghetto...haha..which i did.yup...then daddy brought lunch 4 mi..yay...then continue plying nd watching tv.kiran came back..the spaghetto smell was so nice tat it tickle kiran nose...he ask mi tabao for him he wna bring 2 school eat.haha...jus then mummy came back too aft her wrk nd digged into ma spaghetti as well so sad ppl keep taking it.haha finally i gt 2 eat it...all finished...yup.then ate salad then apple then plum then ice cream.felt like i ate alot alot 2day....haha...omg haha.anyway saw ian tat day...haha wah still cute nd still like sam haha... sigh.... the bf is nt like a bf nd the gd fren is nt like a gd fren.the bf acts more like the fren nd the gd fren act more then a fren like a bf.things r changing.the likes nd dislikes r unclear.silmarity r limited so r our words.sigh sigh wat am i 2 do.everything seems 2 be coming bak. anyway so far in ma life i hav nvr seen a sosososos unindependent women,to the max.nt even a lil.we r always at least a lil independent. anyway i feel like the moment i stop protecting,it is loose again at least i cn rest ma case for 1 of them cos she has some1 else 2 protect her.nd he betta make sure he does it well...yup i tink tat will be it...am tired nd still sick....gng off nw alr take care nd i am out!!

song of the day;last to know-Chris brown

2009-11-27T06:20:00.000-08:00

OMGOMGOMG!!!finally am a lil more free alr...the event child's play is finally over.hav been so busy over it...then marketing ICA 1 finish oso.then no driving.have been c-ing puffy alot lately hhaa...

anyway hanging arnd alot wif mimi lately...2012,webcamming wif darling leon,staying up the whole nite.melaka trip.haha the trip was awesome by the way nd the food OMG.haha then christmas carol...haha...yup so cool...then met uncle yst 2 nd guess wat ayu is working thr 2...haha...uncle say becoming like vivo alr cos like all the vivo ppl...only thing nw thr 50-50 person of smth nd smth
haha....then saw neelam nd the other guy dunno his name...yup haha...

anyway 2day is ma 5th month..ah koon wanted go underwater world.aiyo public holiday le...still wna go sure damn crowded...nd those who noe mi i hate hate hate crowded places..seriously.so annoying nd a total mood turn-off.haha....yup so in the end we ate BK then watch ninja assasin omg so violent,brutal nd bloody man...but rain is hot man.then walked arnd nd i FINALLY gt to eat ma GUYLIAN coco-late omg felt like heaven.then in the train gt tis small lil gal touch ma legs nd butt haha so cute.then we were like competition-ing against each other wif tap tap..haha..yay i win i win.haha...anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY HARRY!!!many muackz to u!!hope u enjoy will cya tmr. nd then thr is sun muahaha...for those who noe the plans....it is so gna be AWESOME!!!haha...

things i wna get:-(must save up)
*the hat fr fast east
*metallic leggings
*river island wallet
song of the day:whatcha say-jason

2009-11-08T05:57:00.000-08:00

heyhey=)
been so busy....gdgd wk...fri suppose 2 go seoul garden but instead we wen 2 manhanttan fish market..the grp was so big.10 of us ltr melvin nd wc joined in 2 tat added up to 12 of us....muahaha so cool....anyway wth i still wan ma seoul garden...anyway aft tat we had anderson ice cream OMG so yummy yum yum....love it.then we walked back 2 ma hse again.so glad then i am bak wif ma big baby ZHU!!!haha but ooo oh i hav a pro...haha lets jus c how it works out.anyway,hav a feelin tis wk gna be busying again...thr is a meeting tmr....booth set up nd duties...OMG!!busy busy busy...

anyway,i find kids so so wonderfully adorable.they are made in such a way tat every kid you see,you will be able to c every piece of great work god has done.they r made so perfect.a small action by them puts a small on ur face,even a chuckle or the silliest ting.i realli love the kids. i wish 2 work wif them but nvr realli gt a chance but i jus hope once school nd projects r settled.i wna try again.anyway eadwin is gng into army sn haha....so cool nd funny...cant wait 2 c him bald.hehehe....so gna laugh at him.georgy bdae is coming 2...oh no...wow so many things coming up...anyway,jus read the topic of marraige nd stuff...well,2 mi i dun realli believe in love but at the same times realli tink it is wonderful nd wen u do get the feelin i bet it will feel betta then heaven.feel like u hav met a fallen angel.or 1 tat ran away specailly fr heaven 2 be wif u...even 4 some1 like mi who believed tat i was gna be matchmake nd married off,i tink tat i wld wna always grow old wif ma sprouse.hold him hand thru every step of the way..being held on while i piece every piece of ma life tgt.he doesnt hav 2 be perfect cos no 1 is even mi.as long as i tink he is perfect 4 mi is enuff.i wld nt abandon ma husband.ppl may say,i,belinda kaur,am a independent person nd wld build ma career up.tat i will confirm 100% but i will wan a man by ma side 2 aft tat or while i am doin it..hw thr is a women behind every sucessful man.thr is oso thr is a man behind every women.haha....the guy wld be thr 2 take care of u nd spend some time wif aft each day of hardwork.take bubble bath tgt.have dinner,watch tv tgt,shopping.hav a shoulder 2 lie on nd fall aslp on aft a tiring day...u dun hav 2 be dependent on him but 2 more of find comfort in him nd be happy.in life,its nt all abt work like tat thr is nvr a end.In life,u hav 2 put each piece in properly nd evenly then it will fit.its always nice 2 hav a partner a special 1 who noes hw 2 perk u up nd smth silly tat he does 2 make u laugh.in love every guy is a silly fool/idiot.they tend 2 do certain stuff tat r realli silly or toopid,but somehw it makes u laugh nd u always rmb it.tats wat makes lil memories 2.yup tats wat i wna say 4 nw...anyway am soso happy 4 u...realli u 2 hav ma best wishes.may u guys be always happy...god bless u 2..love u babe.always be happy,ma beloved..so cited 4 u guys..hahaa...oOMG...so cool.take care ok....

i wna noe u again,i wna understand wat thr is 2 u but if u dun allow mi.wat am i 2 do.aft all tat lies hw u expect mi 2 eva believe anyting u say anymore.idk wat is the truth nd wat is nt...idk hw 2 help u anymore...ppl r worried 4 u dun u damn understand tat.y arent u willing 2 change.i tld u i wld be here 4 u,dun u trust mi...ur family shld be ur source of light nt any other bitch anymore.havent u had enuff of them.or was it ur mistake 2.i had wats happening.dun even noe hw did all tis happen.hw did it ended up like tis.wat state has it become alr...-_- afraid wat else god may put onto us...
god pls help mi...i am doing ma best.

bel's theory:we put ourselves in the hands of god 2 keep us safe but it doesnt always mean we shld depend on him cos he dun made the decisions 4 u.

2009-11-05T07:26:00.000-08:00

heyhey ppl,this wk has been fun fun...so nice been catching up wif like a few ppl.meet wei chiang here nd thr.then met leslie on mon watch sister's keeper.omg the ahg moh cried so much omg it was so funny.the lido drink was so SO HUGE.omg cnt believe leslie finished it.like everyting la.haha..had a fun day thx leslie.tue was a long long day,had class til like 6 then went to potong pasir to mit yi ting.chat wif her.it was so nice to like catch up nd jus talk.haha...then wen her hse,met treasure so so adorable so cute...reminded mi of hamster boy.haha...stay til like late,then headed home.wed was cool 2 ended like 11.30 waited 4 nas nd bai.meanwhile saw joshua nd ahmad.haha wc force mi donate..haha.then once nas nd bai were done,carol nd mi met them nd we headed to AMK where we ate PIZZA HUT...yay whhhheeee.service was so slow...gt entertain by AJC ppl..haha then watch like half of love happens.then had 2 rush 4 driving.guess wat i gt ma 1st instructor.he was so nice nd funny.i like having him.then wen i was leavin i saw the 1 i dint like.like OMG must i always c him.then 2day thurs,badri class was fun....he is funny.slap urself nd opppss sry,i dint say anyting.guess wat i am ICA 1 leader damn.in ma grp is yan zhen,steph nd yong seng.*smack head smack head*haha...then break nd accounting.hmm lec was boring.then tutorial was damn fun.kept jacking yong seng nd shawn...haha cute la they.then we went tutorial rm.ys wanted c the gal he like..haha...i tink nas nd ahmad gd le...guess it is jus mi..anyway tutorial so fun the guys were like seriously playful.they throwing ball arnd the class then run on the table nd all arnd.realli funny.anyway then headed 2 np 2 mit mimi.ate al azhar's prata plaster.haha...smth new nd cool.haha....saw sharon nd elroy..haha...

wow...weeks been gr8 but somehw i nvr fail 2 feel down..i realli wonder wat happen,wat's the cause,since wen it started gng bad,hw did it end up here,wat wen wrong.nd the sad ting is i failed 2 keep the parts tgt.i realli wish i cld do smth.its been cold cold war for 5 days nw.i realli wonder y god is doing all tis??the things i did,was it realli tat terrible tat i am being punish til like tat.i realli wish i cld turn back time.i noe i did wrong tings but i realli wish u wld talk 2 mi again...plssssssssssss pllllllsssssssss....i wld do anyting 2 hav all of u back.anyting at all,4 us all 2 be happy again nd tgt.

i miss u.but i guess tis is realli it.wanted u 2 hav more confidence but all i cn say is i falied tat maybe is might be impossible 4 u.cos it is jus so difficult 4 u.tat it is nt worth a try.i do agree tat things wen 2 far.but i love confidence nd if u dun it affects mi 2.but since u said "so be it."then so be it.it seems all gone nw.all i cn say is i loved u nd was realli happy wif u.even if u dun tok or speak a word i was jus happy being wif u,in ur arms.thx 4 everyting u hav given nd done,i will always rmb.wish u all the best and take care of urself alritez.study hard k..byebye=)

song of the day:Rihanna-Cry

2009-10-31T00:32:00.000-07:00

heyhey ppl...
i feel like tis wk has realli seriously tire maself out fully.nd still i hav 2 make time 4 every1 as much as i cn.so tired so so tired of everyting..wish i cld close ma eye nd tat everytin wld come 2 a standstill...welll seems like nth much is gng ma way.gt the same stupid instructor tat i dun like 3 times in a row alr.nt well,eye swollen.realli too much alr.burbon seem 2 be a bit sad sad 2.dunno wats wrong.

idk y but i cant help it but those few words keep repeating in ma head.'who listens 2 u,listen 2 u 4 wat wen most of the things tat comes out of ur mouth is crap nd nonsense.'wow thank you so much i must say.i will always rmb tat.nxt time i wld jus shut up.or do nt talk 2 be abt anything serious cos it wld be no use cos all i cn give u is crap nd utter nonsense.wow feel so much of a importance person.feel useless alr.lose being socially involve.lose alot nd realli alot.2 many 2 say all out.like tis i wld rather choose 2 be a loner be by maself.take it all in,keep it nd fight it wif all the strength i have gt.

nw i realli am lost.i always dint believe in love always.all guys wanted was a beautiful curved out women who they cn show of 2 all their frenz nd be proud of or 2 satisfy their sexusal needs..but then you watch all those romance drama,movies nd novels which makes u wna believe tat thr is realli love out thr...which i cnt but keep tellin maself 2 believe in it.you said match makin was stupid nd so old fashion.nd said who does it nw.but u noe smth be4 i anyting i tld maself i wld be match made nd married off 2 whoeva ma parents or god chooses 4 mi.smth u dint noe.u said i was only happy wif ma frenz tat y we always go out wif them.so does tat mean i was nvr happy wif u??i am happy wif u.maybe tat is smth u dint noe.u hav no confidence in makin mi happy nd tat ma frenz cn shld i go on wif them instead.or find a guy who cn.buttt no...i chose u.peharps i was crazy.i choose 2 give in 2 u cos i love u.maybe its smth u dint noe.i lie 2 u at times cos i dun wan u 2 get hurt.maybe its smth u dint noe either.everytime i fight wif u,its 4 a reason,it teaches u smth.nd i dun tink u knew tat either.u hav grown since the 1st day i met u.dun tink u realise tat either.i made u understand wat gals wan nd wat u shld be nd hw 2 behave...use it properly.it is realli useful.thx u 4 all tat u hav given mi.realli appreciate it alot.anyting i will be here 4 u alritez.

back 2 mi,i guess like wat ppl say patience is a virtue nd it is worth waiting 4 love nd the rite 1.nd 4 mi i am willing 2 wait.cos i dun wan jus any guy but i wan 'the guy' 4 mi.tat special 1.

i feel like i wna leave slowly let every1 leave without a bel cos i feel they dun realli need her anymore.am so proud of wat every1 has become.like wat ma mum say y does god tak innocent ppl nd ynt tak ppl like mi.sigh nvm its ok.1 day at a time nw...jiayou k every1.god bless all of u!!!

2009-10-24T00:57:00.000-07:00

heyhey yo all...school has been a gd wk but a lil tiring cos nt used 2 it jus yet..still hav yet adapt bak...anyway the wk has been a gr8 1.had so much of fun.nd oso i started ma driving alr...so AWESOME.anyway had a blast yst.nd i realise y i love bikes..but apparently some ppl were makin fun of mi.haha...nd i realise i am short.1st cos the pool table at bugis like half of mi but kinda like it then cannot even sit on a sp properly..then so sad i burn maself,they laughed at mi..idiots.haha...but so fun but butt a bit sore sore le...haha....movie was nice yst..felt like i was watching 2 show.1 main aur mrs khanna nd the other was a 'live' comedy show...haha...laugh til ma stomach pain.but a bit feel like a lil gal.ha...nd i wna kill sonu..toopid chacu...haha...crazy ppl.thx guys =)
peace out guys...hav fun nd enjoyz
feelin....

bel's theory:-if cn minimize the amt of regrets.

2009-10-19T09:22:00.000-07:00

heyhey......1st day of school kinda fun fun...like it...haha but its only the 1st day so let c how the rest of the wk go...

sigh idk wat 2 tink or say....always give in wen u r sad...i dun like c-ing some1 sad...nd i figure tat everything u r sad nd al,i tink of ways of making u happy...nd it works like everytime like magic...u tink abt it...i realli dunno wat 2 tink or say.2 say u r like all the other guys or nt...i wish i knew all the answer nd all the solutions...i jus feel wateva been happening r 4 a reason nd tat tings i say r 4 a certain purpose...if u havnt realise u have grown stronger but nt enufff...i am having probs nd i hav goals tat i wna achieve realli badly...but i am fine nd will work things out k...so yup..i jus wna.....take 1 day at a time...nd stop messing arnd anymore...i hate it....yup i gtg...tired tmr still gt school

2009-10-16T09:36:00.000-07:00

wow i kinda enjoy ma week had a gr8 wk...i felt maybe mi nd kh gt closer nd gt more comfortable wif his frenz...haha.i had fun tis whole wk...school starting alr...looking 4ward 2 it..

anyway was out wif the clique 2day.day dint start off well nd i realli wanted bao bao but thing is the only 1 who knew wat happen was ma baby so tats y i wanted him wif mi.sry guys...anyway eileen was late which caused mi 2 be late.so happen threesome all arrived at the same time...haha...ate korean food then wen town 2 walk walk..then came home..help daddy cook nd made muruku haha then wen temple then met medan nd jakata relatives...saw kiran 2...she chubby chubby nw nt realli nice,she used 2 be really pretty nd beauitful it ok la 4 her.she is RICH...her life is like set...haha...saw ujjal her bro nd all,saw bunty nd kamal 2..nd other cute cute ppl...ahaha then wen expo...feet painful.wah daddy realli gangster sia.then brought kuah kuah,diva nd some other stuff 4 tmr...saw david again nd SURESHH!!!haha aft so long...then came home wen online so many diwali wishes...so happy then gt like 20 msg straight diwali msgs 2 nd still counting....omg its crazy haha....

i realli wish i was dreamin nd tat wen i wake up everything wld be hw i wish it wld be...feel like i am living in a world of fakers nd liars...i too am only a normal human being nd i only cn take it 2 a certain level the rest is up 2 u....

i realli realli care 4 u nd i wish u wld jus tok 2 me nd tell mi all nd nth but the truth i wld nt judge u but instead give u ma all.i wan nd am willing 2 go thru it all wif u.let mi help...let mi in...nd 1 thing i wan u 2 be safe and pls take care of urself..dun make mi worry...nt all things r abt winning or showing off or becoming known.

i am lost,so many tings hav had happened nd r happening i am so at a lost.i tink 4 wat ppl wna say nw i am nt bothered cos i tink i hav had enuff really...2 mi personally i tink tat karma lookin 4 mi nd tat it will be knocking on ma door sn.i do nt wish 2 do anyting wrong nd smth against ma principle.i wna settle down nd clear things up nd nt hav more regrets or more bitch shit.I JUS WNA BE HAPPY do u tink it is so much 2 ask 4.i wanna hav peace.laughing nd smiling 24/7 nd nt jus as a front.i am bo bian alr cos i jus wan those close 2 mi by ma side tats all.thks 2 all tat have been.appreciate it alot...ppl out thr i do nt wish 2 hav any grudges nd 4give mi if i did anyting ting or said anyting.

anyway gal i am so proud of u...so glad u understand nd am growing.gdgd k.continue...nd dun worry abt anything cos i will be here.

Things i dun like:guys playing girls..
lies,excuses

bel's theory:wen u do wrong or bad things or say certain stuff,dun tink no 1 is watching.cos thr is always sme1 watching nd nth wld happen nw but it will.so be careful nd beware.be good nd mind ur own business...thr is lots more 2 life.

song of the day:bewafa-Imran Khan(it has been set 2 repeat)haaha...jus love it so so much

2009-10-10T22:31:00.000-07:00

heyhey....

so glad i had a funfun wk...realli cool nd hope nd wish the coming wk wld be as gd...
sad the movie marathon gt cancelled.but still hope thr wld be happening things gng on 4 the entire wk...wna be occupied.haha hav been busy wif diwali shoppin..so tis is jus a short update.anyway fri wen 2 night safari super duper uper FUNFUN!!!haha...love it i wna go underwater world nxt...yup hopefully cn...anyway gtg will update again sn

2009-10-07T07:59:00.001-07:00

heyhey....anyway,today i felt was quite interesting nd fun...idk y but i was so into the musuem..like felt is was very interesting all those facts nd tings i nvr knew.i kinda liked it...tot i wld be bored by the museum by no it was realli fascinating.it was oso a experience i nvr had.it was fun 2...taking pics looking at the history making jokes crapping.realli fruitful time i had...wna go 2 the toys museum bet u i wld be much so interested in it...yay fun fun...well hav lots of tings plan.hope everyting goes smoothly nd according 2 plans.i hope nd wish.i wna fill wif lots nd lots of think so tat i wont tink abt tings nd let ma mind go wild.but idk y...moving of the direction of being alone,quiet down.recap,i met eileen at cathay whr we plyed tap tap haha again while waiting 4 mimi ma...then made our way 2 the peranakan museum so cool i kinda lead the way haha my area ma haha... spend like 3 hrs or so at the museum then walk back 2 ma hse along the way showed mimi nd eileen the other cool tings on the way..haha yup...nice day i had...hope i hav the best last 2 wks... mimi say we cld all go malacca nxt month.like the 3 of us tgt so cool cnt wait jus hope wont get disappointed again..yup

anyway i am so so so glad 2 hav burbon arnd.cos i realise he is the cutest ting on earth 2 mi.even though he has bitten us be4 still love him alot.cos 4 the pass few days i realli emo as in,in a way whr u realli notice things...ppl smile nd laughter nd i realise burbon bring lots of joys nd all 2 ma family.he does adorable tings tat bring ur faces fr a frown 2 a smiles nd laughter..dearest lil ting.

anyway...amazingly i had NO calls fr papa,mummy or home or any msgs at all oso.OMG it was so cool. nd i came home at 7.cool i dint even say wat time i wld be back nd no 1 even knew wat time i left.like WOW...then saw jang nd rohit downstairs amazingly she rmbs mi...wow...then ate at the market..yup then came home watched tv wif FAM FAM...nw all slping oik oik time liao...left mi the dead zombie...haha...yup tmr nt sure of the plans yet...c hw ba...haha yup
adios...

bel's theory:-i tink ppl shld do wat they wish nd wan...ppl hav talked 2 them nd explain 2 them alr the rest is up 2 them whether they wish 2 change nd follow on their own nt cos ppl asked them 2 or force them.u hav a mind set of ur own,use it nd tink 4 the gd/betta.everyting is up 2 ur ownself.

song of the day:An jing-jay chou

2009-10-06T19:34:00.000-07:00

heyhey ppl....sorry havent been updating.cos am either nt in the mood of 2 busy.

anyway have had tings on since last sat well tat is at least up 2 wat i cn rmb...haha...anyway quick update.sat smths smths happen!!made mi tink so so much.as usual wen temple nd stuff...

sun suppose go silat road light diva...woke up late then had 2 mit kh.accompany him donate blood...i tink i need more time 2 overcome injections nd blood...totally gross mi out nd goosebumps..then met wc,leslie his fren,mimi at vivo...yup ate at ma shop then watch phobia 2...ok la loved the last story haha....then wen visitng 2 kinta haha...dint noe so many ppl miss mi..nd i so so miss them.all of them r so ma darlings.adorable idiots...borrowed itouch fr georgy..haha..came home gt scolded scolded lo...

mon wen 2 get ma retainers omg so hard 2 talk like seriously even Dr wee laugh at mi so sad sob sob...haha but he was nice he gt everyting pink 4 mi...haha...nice dentist...like mi short short small small 1...ahah so cute..then aft which met eileen nd michelle at serene mac to teach her then wen al azhar ate dinner wif kh nd abiel haha then ply tap tap we were like makin so much noise..aiyo i tell u like crazy ppl..haha i saying maself sia..okok...but funfun k...

then tue...daddy woke mi up at 9.get rdy everyting nd then had 2 send the guantis 2 the airport they were gng back 2 medan liao.yup so nice so cool...i wan 2 travel 2...escape...discover somewhr new nd explore.then came home wen 2 rest cos gt headache...slpt til like 4...then woke up nd everyting.wen fetch mummy.ltr on wen 2 watch wanted haha....salman getting old but nt bad still nice nice cool.quite hyper but shall go slp liao...
CHeers=)

bel's theory:-DO NOT take ur family 4 granted.you might NVR noe wen they might leave nd nvr come back.they r the 1 nd only.they will always be supporting u,so be thr 4 them.

Song of the day:-Hotel Service Room(pitbull)

2009-10-01T09:15:00.000-07:00

heyhey...
tue i wen 4 the ice cream buffet wow i loved it...i will 4eva eva love ice creams...nd key lime pie...nd waffle nd pancake...haha...cherry 2...am a gr8 kisser cos i am able 2 tie a knot wif the stick of a cherry 2 form a shape of a heart...yesss...then we walked arnd a few things I wna get...haha...anyway came bak home talked 2 kh dunno whether it is exactly enuff...maybe its jus mi...i dunno wat 2 say or hw 2 say...anyway paretns caught us...wed dint wan 2 go out...decided jus stay home nd tink stuff thru tats wen tears found it way 2 mi.decide 2 distract myself thru housework.maade the beds,sweep the floor,cleaned the kitchen ,wash nd scrubed the shove area nd all mass cleaning haha...then decided go listening music nd let it out yup...then wen fetch mummy...then wanted go fetch some medan guanti fr the airport daddy say i tak so long...anyway then was watching tv wif kiran wen he left go somewhr suddenly aft a call wanted follow him but he disappear so fast so decided go skating instead but 2 skate 2 novena but papa called mi halfway alr so had 2 come bak at the same time tink ma wheels giving way alr...sad sad...haha anyway wen 2 fetch ma baby fr school 2day...surprise him cos he tot i was still locked up at home haha then wen al azhar 2 eat then met olivia yup...shopped arnd a bit then left 2 home...gt of at newton nd decided 2 walk the long way home...yup reached home,parents ask mi go down walk walk nd get some tings so yup.....

well these few days hav nt been the best.actulli its been quite sometime alr hav nt been the best of moods but jus wna hide it all....keep it all hidden away shove under the carpet.no one 2 ask abt it or 2 speak of it...dun wna say or tok abt it.i wna jus watch it pass be4 ma eye,wide waken.upset...in need of liquid nd puffs 2 keep mi stable afraid i wld fall of scale nd crumple 2 the grounds.if i cld i wna run away far far away or 2 somewhr up up nd above...i dunno wat 2 tink anymore nd i dun wish 2 fight it anymore.i wna live life up,live it 2 the fullest nd enjoy maself nd always being full of joy nd laughter nd smilez nt only 4 show but 4 real...tink is i dun care alr realli cos am nt afraid of being alone being diff...wna be wat i wna be...wat affects mi is wat ma parents say...nd they mean the world 2 mi.

2 all ma sweeties out thr i am alritez dun worry k...thx 4 ur concern lately.love u guys all soso much...i will always be arnd,always thr...peace out!

Bel's theory:-sometimes parents do nt always give u wat u wan bcoz they wan u 2 work hard 4 it.nd they do nt always provide u wif everything u wan bcoz it pushes u 2 thrive in life,2 do well nd make the best of urself.

Not every1 is as lucky as others...neither did we chose 2 be like tat it was jus set upon us nd we jus gt 2 live by it.

song of the day-Avril lavigne-Get over it(love love the song lyrics realli meaningful)

2009-09-28T09:43:00.000-07:00

heyhey....

hevent been updating much cos i hav been kinda busy....anyway fri wen out wif 3some nd olivia nd toby 2 watch FAME!!awesome movie uber nice...then we walking arnd nd took a few shots then i left 2 home nd the rest 4 F1.i wen home change gt rdy then wen part 2 town again haha tis time 2 mit leslie nd wc.ate at long john silver then walking arnd wen 2 the arcade nd hang..the 2 of them forced mi 2 watch movie but i dint buy it muahaha....nt tat day l sorry haha....anyway thx guys...then headed down 2 marina 2 go watch the F1 on sight itself..haha...yup it was quite late alr so we decided 2 leave alr yup then...........

sat...dint go anyway...rmb family day haha....then went groceries shopping then came home gt rdy asap cos kiran had game...yup watched him 4 a while then wen temple...ate then mi nd mummy did our prayers i finsih faster then her yay haha so mi nd papa decided go wash some dishes 1st in the meantime.then we tot thr was some situation in the laggar(eating place)hall but we were wrong it was actualli in the kitchen..haha very toopid.so daddy ask bara(daddy's bro) wat's going on well seem like thr were tis few xtra action young ppl abt 20 plus i guess say tat thr was a bird in the kitchen nd the bird i tink touch the food so they say no more vegetarian alr cos the animal touch alr...haha damn funny wat nonsense sia...it sound absurd.haha....laugh til i cannot stop then they say wat they wan col police all siao....punjabi ladies be4 the food come out they all queue alr u tink they care...haha....then wen indian temple big festival so many ppl then opposite it we saw a helicopter some big shot i tink so many police officers then the plane raise nd left site...so cool haha then wen 4 dinner then jus came home suppose 2 follow mummy papa go mustafa c gt material 4 mi sew 4 diwali but was 2 lazy but instead i wen 4 F1 again...haha...ang moh keep looking at mi so nice...haha...yay...then we walked arnd nd came home abt like 1 every1 slp alr.so cool i love it........

sun was nth much more of temple then aft tat came home watched all ma disney shows nd then dadaddum the F1 so cool love it....would be more more happy if the bike racing...definitely will get tix...cool..but wat i was more excited abt was ma removal of braces.

mon=removal of braces was so so happy.had butterflies in ma yummy tummy be4 the removal...apparently ppl kept staring at ma mouth haha...weird weird 1 so i try nt 2 smile...i keep running ma tongue over ma teeth...feels so smooth so nice.haha anyway aft NDCi headed 2 btp met eileen ate duck rice then 2 mambo 2 ply pool sn aft kh came followed by olivia nd toby.so proud of maself 2day won all the games...yay yay whee so happy i tink am rdy 2 take on rasvin hope i cn win...haha...had fun plying at pool 2day.then we walked arnd then mi,eileen,kh headed 2 kap 2 sit nd chat nd slack yup.then headed home.i tink no 1 realise i took it out yet i tink...oh well surprise!!!haaha...tired le anyting hav nt been in a gd mood recently so yup am turning in alr...

bel's theory:make more nd more memories cos once u lost smth or smth is over all u hav r memories 2 keep.nd once its gone leave it,nd face up.

so 2 ppl out thr thx 4 the memories u hav given mi i will always treasure them...

SOng of the day:Kristinia DeBarge - Goodbye

2009-09-24T11:47:00.000-07:00

anyway 2day suppose 2 go 2 eileen hse 2 ply tennis but like i said we dun follow plans.we nvr do hav no idea y we even bother making plans serious.instead met olivia nd eileen at btp,kfc..then we wen 2 ply pool at mambo...ltr saw abiel nd derek.haha funny.then kh came over oso...played arnd wif eileen slr.nt realli nice haha...no offend.but well at least she has 1.then left thr nd headed 4 eileen hse 2 slack.slacked til 8 smth then rushed down 2 bugis 2 watch dil bole hadipa nice movie shahid was so cute..haha..then came home nd ate a lit.at home gt a bit noisy 2.then watch pyaar ke side effects haha movie damn comedy haha.....hey gal,hey boy,wld u be ma baby doll sure if u promise bad boy...woohoo love tat....haha

Fugitivo is wat i wna do.idk wat 2 say.lost 4 words...idk wats gng on nd i hav no idea wat 2 say or tink.i tink i am jus losing mi...or maybe its jus tat time of the month...but i cant help it.smth feels wrong smth is weird...dun ask mi,i dun wna talk abt it.cld nt help but 2 feel sad.i dunno exact reasons 2 y i feel tat.thr r way alot of things gng thru ma mind,it scares 2 even jus close ma eyes nd tinking abt things cos a whole load of things will surface.nd cant help but tear.haha kk enuff wif the emo emo stuff.

somehw still tink kh nd eileen alike nd suited.1 cn be read like a book,the another cant.haha nd thr is more 2 tat.wont say much.feels very diff.idk maybe bcoz i somehow imagine every guy/bf 2 be like ma bro.or a guy in a hindi movie...eileen asked mi if i regret jumping down nd landing on ma nose.nd i stick 2 ma answer no.it will always be memories i carry wif mi 4eva.i had fun nd did tings none of us had done be4,some of the best times i had.yup

nd i wld like 2 make a shout out ppl who r still growing-having been thru so so much in life u cnt even imagine,i wld like 2 say stick wif ur family frenz,bf/gf r impt but no matter wat family is ulitmately the most most impt.always be arnd them nd spend time wif them cos we werent brought up by fren or bf/gf but by parents hw come we cn spend so much of time wif them wen we were young but nw hardly any wat more in the future.Home is always the best nd most comfortable place on earth,nth beats it.dun eva treat home like a hotel cos tat is the rudest ting 2 do nd show ur parents.once in a while stay out or stay over but dun make it a habit.wen u do tink do ur frens do the same 2 their parents or is it jus u??

ok gtg nw...late alr nd meeting tmr 4 movie cya bbyezzzz =)

bel's Theory:-if ppl tink tat person is gd,do betta nd show ppl tat person is gd but u r much betta nd tat u r the best.

Song of the day:-kasam ki kasam(i swear)

2009-09-23T10:06:00.000-07:00

heyhey.....

havent been updating much...anyway quick update....mon was suppose 2 have lunch nd play pool but instead,toby,olivia,yuresh,amelia,mi and kh watched the ugly truth..cld nt stop laughing.i had a gr8 gr8 day superd..very high nd happy...haha...ate pasta mania..

then tue....met randy nd his gf.he has a cute gf suits him anyway congrats 2 u guys...take carez man...then met mimi aft her work nd uncle,nd leslie nd kh at botak jones we ate satay nd then all headed home.but so sad we dint do wat we suppose 2 which was 2 eat the ice cream buffet.so sad sad...anyway felt like i talked alot 2day at the samw time like very lit.with uncle they all i talked nd talked but then it came 2 mi nd u...idk...i mean it has been like tat if u dun talk 2 mi,i wont talk 2 u.wat i mean is tat i will be silence..i mean u tink abt it.guess it is usual reaction.yup...nt used 2 silence.only at times.yup...

then wed we were suppose 2 go ecp 2 cycle nd skate but guess wat it dint happen either.instead we met at imm 2 eat nd then when 2 bowl at chevrons.waited 4 ppl 4 abt 45 mins-1 hr...plus on top of that i was having flu..yup...i won all the bowling games but sad sia the highest only wat 96 so lousy.tats nt the only thing tat was lousy my gpa was lousy 2...so sad sad....kiran give mi a lift home was chevrons.so high he was gng so freaking fast.we met kavin at np then headed home.we were racing against a GTR cn u believe it omg..crazy sia...kavin damn funny.haha...but the gtr was hot.it was hot/blood red.so nice.we reached home like in no time.then wen 2 buy cake 4 papa....then waited til every1 was home cut the cake then ate.by 10 every1 had disappeared haha...so like nth alr celebrating bdae at home.like orhh jus another bdae ah another yr older only like so no biggie...yup!!tats wat change ma expect of bdae 2.started since last yr.everything was like so wth.heck it.tis yr oso.no 1 at home celebrated.was busy attending preetipal wedding.lucky 4 mi,i met uncle nd all they gave mi a blast which i am realli happy nd thankful of.hope it continues cos i dun wan 2 be 4gotten or wat i dun wna be alone...NVR!!!nd the other thing tat made 28 feb tis day special was wat sunny did.haha...so swt.haha alritez sorry 4 the emo-ing dunno jus suddenly....
rite...anyway gave the Calvin Klein watches...haha apparently its fr kiran nd mi.haha...like ok...haha....alritez...

ohoh....omg ppl whom havent seen a view fr the 30th storey omg u so hav 2 c.it is amazing seriously amazing like WOW....realli realli nice...so loved it...haha...

Anyway,i still find smth wrong wif mi...nt sure wat exactly but yea...mimi nd eileen realli so sorry,i have talked behind ur backz.the world works in such a way tat thr cn nvr be no gossip at all.every being gossip be it a man/women,gay/les,husband/wife,bf/gf,best frenz,young/old.so all i cn realli say is i sincerely apologise nd no matter wat i dun wan 2 lose u guys.all the other ppl,sorry if i hav done anyting 2 u guys.2 ma baby,i dun mean 2 be cold 2 u but sometimes it jus naturally happens.sorry 2 hav caused pros nd so many misunderstanding.but cos i like ma space nd all.hope u understand.

ANYWAY MA DARLING DARLING DADDY I LOVE YOU!!wish u gd health,nd tat everyting goes smoothly 4 u nd you will live a 100 yrs so i cn keep disturbing u..muahaha...love u daddy...nd thank u 4 everyting.=)

Bel's theory:nvr plan anything 2 in depth cos thr is no use 4 it cos we nvr follow any plans....haha truth enuf i guess

Song 4 the day:-Belinda-Al La Nanita Nana(it means To the The Nanita Nursemaid)so in love wif it =)

2009-09-20T04:53:00.001-07:00

sigh sigh.......pass few days dunno feel like emo-ing....papa is crazy nd he driving mi insane 2...wth is wrong wif him seriously..2day is sun.tis wk fri,sat nd sun sux so boring,fri papa locked mi in the hse idk y??sat dint do much stayed home watched more movies nd more movies then went temples then eat dinner.yup tats all then 2day sun same goes bored nth 2 do decided 2 bath burbon maself like trained ma arms muscle sia...haha...fatty so heavy sia...then watch spectacular,so nice nice nice.it a new disney movie like HSM like tat gt singing nd dancing.yup.guy look like joe jonas haha...yup nice....nth much 2 do....bored 2 death.cant do much arnd ma area 2 cos way 2 much banglah mummy nd papa wont let.so fat hope of leaving the hse.

bel's theory-always go out be4 ur parents get home...hahaha...

if i was rich things i wna get:\
-DSLR D5000
-itouch
-Jimmy Choo shoes
-ALDO shoes
-roberto cavalli collections
-lots of clothes
haha....lots of movies.
-psp
-high end restaurants.
lots of clubbing.
-sky diving
-water skiing
-scuba diving
-bungee jump
-snowboard/snow ski
muahaha....

haha....nd nw 4 reality
-my name necklace
-famous amos cookies
-adidas watch
-the white top i saw at F21
-more clothes fr F21/more clothes
-ice cream buffet
-night safari
-nice jacket(maybe a colourful 1)haha
-more shoes haha...
-a new bag(black billabong de breaking liao)
-new earpiece(i wan the bling 1)haha
-a new top stud(i lost the last 1)

being random if gt more will add...haha

Song of the day-jaane tu ya jane na - Kabhi kabhi(lyrics of the song very very meaningful!!)yup...i am free cn ask mi translate.haha.

2009-09-18T01:28:00.000-07:00

THURSSSS............was so excited...was gna go kovan 4 the self-service salad but wen we gt thr we realise thr oso no more liao....so sad sad!!y they take away!!i loved it so so much dun mind paying xtra 4 it but y tak away...then their stud meal oso become so pathetic sia....pizza hut is such a disappointment nw!!aft eating we walked the whole of heartland mall.nth much le wanted tak bus rides arnd then change 2 trains ride up nd down at the same time chit-chat lo..jus nice olivia ended her tuition,we stoped at little india then bus-ed down 2 kap otw she gt up the bus 66 then met abiel at kap while we waited 4 eileen nd olivia mum 2 fetch her then we headed 2 mambo 2 ply pool cos eileen say she wanted.nd i dint mind so yup.wen we reach idk y we always hav a pro of puttin the card in their care.seriously do nt noe y like wth put card thr only wat...then i say 2 eileen since u paying y nt u put then she say y she paying.like cos she owe mi i said tat day i come down 2 town 2 lunch wif u then u treat mi pool 1 day.i wen all the way down jus 2 watch her eat le...tats hw budget i am.then say i nvr pay tat day tats y...but i did.i rmb clearly at kfc on mon i tld her dun put the 2 bucks in ma wallet u tak nd pay 4 pool ltr plus the 2 buck u owe mi.i paid ma share tat day...i dun owe ppl money i nvr do,if i do i return rite aft.ppl owe mi.nd do u realli tink i wna eat ur money.i tink i paid quite alot of ur stuff mostly food(ben and jerry ice cream)nd pool nd i even brought u a belt tat is 18 bucks nd i nvr expected anything in return,u?? brought anything??it was ok,fine by mi cos i still had ma singtel job nd had higher pay alr.but nw i dun i am a useless thing nw..at home everyday do nth like fen ren.nd 4 u even small amount 4 pool nw i hav 2 pay 2??cant u pay,i am completely broke noe,no job at all,no money...u hav a job,u r being paid like 7/hr 2 sit thr nd do nth...still so scrooge..nvm 4gt...jus ma luck i guess...sometimes realli feel i get taken advantage of cos i am 2 nice or cos i dun say anything.sigh sigh.....

bel's theory:-
put urself 1st be4 every1 else.cos no 1 will treat u betta then urself.

Song of the day-Million stylez-Give me the strength

2009-09-17T03:16:00.000-07:00

weeelllllll...........hmmmm

wed 2day, went 2 school had A team meeting again last planning session i tink be4 the proposal is drawn up...it was like 2 hrs plus but still like quite early so decided go book more lessons at ssdcl then wen home.then came home slacked 4 awhile then met my baby go watch aliens in the attic.haha...the lit monster evil but a lit cute cute like wei chiang lo then the nerd nerd 1 like melvin like tat.....haha so adorable...so long nvr mit him liao lo...haha.....then wen cold storage brought JC 4 jes her 20th bdae old lady alr...haha....its ok i still love u lots lots...haha then aft tat headed down 2 seragoong jes home...haha...i dint wna tell kh whr i gng so fun 2 disturb him...haha kk wont be mean.apparantly i was 1st which is gd cos she tld mi nt 2 be late.gt thr only her mum started making mi eat nd eat....feel like a fatty...we wer talking nd makin fun nd all it was nice nd fun.haha slowly more nd more ppl came.nirmal,gunju,then 2 of her working frens,1 of them had so many things common wif mi was so cool, then vin,brijesh nd his gf came,nikku then MANPREET!!haha yea so glad 2 c her give her a gr8 big hug.haha.....it was realli nice 2 c every1.vin kept disturbing mi haha crazy fella....every single thing haha...he said i hav become diff,look diff...hw??

aft a while it felt weird weird idk y.is it cos .....dunno like so weird wanted 2 maybe go mit george but aft i left jes place i lose all mood...yup...so like nvm lo.
feeling a weelittle bit regretful....
gna go off alr be4 i go
my theory 4 2day:-
do wat u wan,take risk nd nvr regret,
if u do fight 4 it again...

song of the day:one chance-one girl

2009-09-15T09:34:00.000-07:00

heyhey......

hmmmm......sorry skipped 1 day.sigh sigh still jobless......y cant i find a decent job.i so need 1.anyway,i had school,A team,planning 4 the charity de carnival.yup woke up a lit late had 2 rush.reach a lit late but every1 was ok wif it...haha.anyway had a gr8 time.kept bully nas.haha.....seany.......hehehe...met kh at yck mrt then we headed down 2 vivo 2 sit nd talk tings out.yup...i guess things r fine nw.betta...treatin him betta then usual i wonder is it cos of tat reason.

anyway aft tat we wen into the mrt wen into i asked kh we gng btp tak train 4 wat ah then he was like yea hor...haha....tis is wat i call 2 sotong at a mrt.haha...kk i realise i saying maself.then we took mrt down 2 little india then took bus down 2 btp.haha.then ate at kfc,tats wen i fell like a stand up comedian...was talking so much rubbish then laugh nd laugh til stomach pain.then we wen mambo ply pool.so sad eileen all the way win mi sia.poor me.stomach was realli killing mi so painful.since sat....kh dropped mi all the way hme.wen i was using the com i felt like i was being tormented,my stomach was torturing mi.it hurt realli bad but it was late so dint say anything....jus took panadol nd went 2 slp.yup

tis morning was woken up by the continous calls fr eileen nd daddy...aiyo...yup gt up washed up nd then decide i wld go eat wif eileen.yup...gt rdy in 10 mins nd rushed down 2 mit her pei her eat.cos i ate at home alr.no money le.haha...then went bak 2 her workplace was actualli waiting 4 amelia but then she ps us so stayed on wif eileen til she ended.then wen cine eat dinner youg tau hau cos i had a craving 4 it.haha...then wen we wanted play pool but like so late 2 head 2 mambo so we decided try the 1 along the way 2 walking 2 ps but aft 6pm the rate was actualli quite exp.so we decided nt 2 watch instead walk down 2 cathay nd sit nd talk but instead the basement dance school caught our attention they were pole dancing omg so so hot nd sexy like wow awesome.i wan 2 learn.haha....its ok gna go wif belly dancing 4 nw.yupyup....then walked bak home.papa is driving mi insane.i tink i only rmb 2 sentence,gt no brain,gt no hse.wah tis few days he realli very grumpy.very annoying.tinking of gng bak 2 ma logic or jus muting maself once again.cos i always end up quareling wif them.jus cos of kiran they tink i am the same,y jus cos i am close 2 him nd cos i go home late.every1 is diff,diff personality diff tinkin.a whole different person.y cnt they understand tat.i am alr change,changed 4 the betta alr.wat do they still wan fr mi.sit at home everyday be a stone.i am alr tryin.i come home on time nd expected time i inform them of whr i am.nd maybe once a wk i am i eat into the nite.but isnt tat gr8 alr or thr is always gng bak 2 ma past.if u push it.....

bel's theory of the day:-
always be remind of the worst nd rmb some1 has change which is gd enuff nd shld be proud dun ask 4 more cos u might push the person bak.

Anyway,jesmin HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!love u sosososo much DIDI...pray tat god will always watch over u nd hope u enjoy ur day alritez.take carez!!!
excited 2 mit u ltr..gna give u a kiss.hahaha......
gtg...nitez

SOng of the day:Adam Lambart-Mad World

2009-09-13T01:22:00.000-07:00

heyhey:)
been a gdgd gal.sat afternoon wen 2 a roman catholic church at alijuined.visit yt nd pay respects 2 her mum who jus passed away recently.i so feel 4 her.i can nvr nvr nvr imagine mine ....i dun even wna say it or think abt.Since i left i cant stop tinkin abt it nd eventually miraculously tears wld be rolling down ma cheeks..cant even imagine any1 arnd me gone fr ma life.i wish tat day wld nvr come.i jus wan 1 wish 2 go be4 them.in a way,its kinda scary.1 day jus suddenly u disappear nd thr were actualli tings u wanted 2 do.we human spend so much time earning money so tat we cn do but wat if be4 u cn do it u left wat is the money 4 them.
Therefore bel's thoery comes in:the moment u hav money spend it rite away on smth u realli realli wna do.at least u wont regret or miss out anyting in life.
if nt,theory number 2:behind ur will 4 ur kids write down wat u wanted 2 do nd let them do it on ur behalf,ohoh nd do leave them the money so they dun need waste time earning it.

anyway continuing:wen 2 t1 aft tat wen 2 visit wc,wen 4 a smoke then left.stomach was killing mi.came home use com a bit then fetch mummy then drop sukhwant at bugis mrt then headed 4 temple(silat road) then daddy drove arnd cpd area nd all,then went indian temple.saw the hindi family again.they r like same as us come every sat but its a huge family.plus points hindi nd cute boi but tink they 2 young.i sound like a paedophile.haha...
eheh AM NOT K.so glad 2 be home cos my tummy was like turning inside out fr all the driving arnd.yup was actualli glad 2 go back work the nxt day aft so long.

BUT guess wat tis morning gt a msg fr george saying he gt bad news which was john doesnt allow mi go bak.sad sad...i miss working thr,all the ppl all the crapping.i cn nvr go bak nw.realli upset.i mean john is an asshole realli realli.i mean wat a reason 2 kick some1 out nt say i made his company suffer a big loss or stole or anything.jus cos he boss big deal.he dint even warn or give room 4 improve.dun worry karma will help mi tak revenge on him.2 all those suckers boss out thr i promise 2 work hard nd become a big shot nd wen i do betta watch ur biz.haha....1st company i wld bring down i wld bring down wld be john's JD talents.

As u cn c ma sun alr dint start off well,tis was following by others things tat happen at home.shouting nd quarrelling at home.tsk tsk Frère i am realli worried abt u pls let mi help u.willing 2 do anyting 4 u jus let mi in.
i will always be here 4 u/even any1 out thr jus noe i will always be thr 4 u,to catch u wen u fall so dun worry.have no fear belicoolgirl is here..haha....

i dunno wat else 2 say.nth in the world is eva fair.life is nvr fair.
at times u cn tink of it as a game,sometimes u the player nd sometimes u get played.some play dirty some jus anyhow play nd depend on luck.well wat cn i say it is jus like tat like it or nt no qns r 2 be asked.wen we were born were we asked 1st no right.yup....ok i am kinda messed up nw.idk head hurts.Sinking in the sea of my own tears.dun wish 2 talk abt it oso.

guess i am jus realli tired,fr life.
wish life cld go smoothly in future nd trouble nd problems wld leave mi alone.
ppl r nt bad but the society makes ppl turns bad,pushes them to its edge then aft tat pin point at them.haha....tats life.wat cn i say
okok i will go nw will be bak 2 update.
prendre soin de
BYe bye

Song of my day:Jay Sean-Cry

2009-09-12T00:49:00.000-07:00

heyhey...i am back man.haha
been busy the past 2 days.work at the Comex IT fair saw quite a number a ppl.nd the guys r work wif r realli jokers sia.crazy ppl as usual i was the youngest.haha.mimi worked downstairs.My job was so damn tiring.feet sososo painful.i walk 2 work then stand fr 10-10 plus then walk back home.cn ddie....i hav 2 stand the whole day on top of that i had 2 promote PDAs ndd GPS.i mean hw many ppl wna buy a PDA nd somemore hp 1.if it was mi i rather get Blackberry 1.yup eileen most slackest job.2nd day eileen nd her mum came down cos eileen wanted 2 get a eos or slr i nt sure.yup.my thoery 4 IT fair dun earn money fr it,u rather spend thr.on the whole i actualli i hate the IT fair.dunno y i worked thr.i must hav been out of ma mind.haahha....i hop i cn get a admin job or wat.i love working at singtel but i dun tink they wan mi anymore.so sad.aiya 4get it.dun wna say alr.

Anyway,i dunno mi nd baby has been fighting so mus smth 4 smth so stupid.i hav a feelin i dun tink things cn go bak 2 the same.hav 2 give it some time,even then it will either be worst or stronger.depends.i realli dunno wats been gng on...u miss mi coming down 2 mit mi,shld hav let mi noe.cos 1st i am busy 2nd i am workin.yup i dunno seriously wats been gng on.All i cn say is i am realli sorry on my part k.tld u i need time 2 fit in.so sorry k other then tat i dunno wat 2 say.i am afraid i might nt be able 2 tak it cos i hav other thing 2 on my mind.

Guys sigh sigh.........welll guess it is actualli quite easy 2 figure them out.they all wan nd hop for 1 thing fr gals(even hum tum tells so) nd they say its gals tat r hard 2 figure out.haha...joke.thr is a different between guys nd gals.

bel's theory:-
-Dun work at IT fairs waste time,dun work thr,shop thr if cn dun even go thr.haha...
-ALWAYS ALWAYS treasure wat u hav.cos once its goes,u will definitely regret confirm plus stamp plus chop.haha....

thats all 4 nw.will be back 2 update sn i hope.no mood 2 update oso.
off 2 play guitar hero its addictive man.bbye

2009-09-09T10:43:00.000-07:00

heyya peeps:)

I noe i Noe havent been updating or doing anything wif ma blog.
well,guess life caught up wif mi.9 projects and tests and examz and reports.all almost drove mi insane like seriously no kiddin.
dun look like but it did.
haha remember ma forte hiding it all underneadth tat smile.
haha....kk nt gna emo.

ok,glad examz r over.but 1 pro no job.dun wna lose ma singtel job cos i realli love it despite black bear.
ok la for nw i am gna hav a job which is working at the comex IT fair selling HP smartphones nd GPS.i tink i maself need 1 in future for the places i nt familiar wif la.haha....=)

haha.....gd things is tat every1 is working at the same time.like mimi nd eileen.but 4 mi nd mimi is only until sun then we r bak 2 being jobless.
haha....but i actualli hav alot of plans 1 le 4 tis hols.Like i planned to go overseas i dun wna stay in singapore.i wna hav a fun job,try smth new nd fun.make more frenz,go clubbin nd go crazy.

I wna earn enuf money nd bring every1 go eat 4 papa bdae at no signboard resturaunt at Vivo.hmpf....dun tink i am able 2 do tat.
i wna go bowling,keep practicing ma pool-ing skills,go nite skating arnd ma hse area,movie marathon,nite swimming nd lots more ohoh nd night safari.
haha wow tats alot of things.rich boi fren or godbro whru??haha......wna find 1.haha

Reminiscene of the past.
remembering everything fr the past was a saddening thing but gd cos it jus remind mi of 1 thing
tat thr is no 1 out thr who is eva loyal or trustful.depend on only urself nd always stay strong nd keep moving on.
daddy I LOVE U SO SO much.stay strong k.we r all here 4 u.dun worry abt us.
stop lying,anything u wan ask mi,u noe i am always willing 2 help u.anything at all,anytime.
there is nth i wont do 4 u.jus need u 2 speak 2 mi.

Koon hua,i jus wna say thanks 4 being arnd 4 mi.
like u said eileen nd mimi r ma sisters.they hav curfew so do i.u cn meet ur frenz aft meeting mi gd 4 u but they cnt they hav 2 be home.they r jus 18 nd they r gals hw late u wan them 2 go home.
I like u but our relationship nd this past week show mi more then i needed 2 u abt u nd everything else arnd nd abt u.my whole perpestive of u realli changed.so diff fr who i tot u r nd will be.this past few so many things have gone wrong wif u.
still i dint say anything nd dint wan 2.afraid it wld spoil the relationship but u seem 2 be digging ur own grave,thinking everything is so funny/or a joke.then aft tat apologise.doesnt mean i dun get angry its ok and cn jus continue jokin abt certain things.i felt like i shldnt hav tld u abt it.i kinda regret in a way.maybe somethings r jus met 2 be a sercet.even though i hav a bf i still like being wif ma fren nw nd then.To speak the truth i realli put u as the 4th.
1st-my family
2nd-my studies
3rd-my god sisters/bros
4th-wld be u,tat is wat i feel nd wat i tink.

2 the rest of those out thr.i am who i am.if u cant stand it or dun like it 2 bad,deal wif it.
life's a bitch. too bad, so sad.
suck it up nd tak it.
I hav gt a attitude like it or nt no 1 cn change it.
I am who i wna be,nd dun wish 2 change so dun eva ask mi 2.
Thank u very much.

2009-07-12T10:42:00.000-07:00

Welllll,i dunno 2 be happy or sad.had fun yst.Arvin is a donkey came below ma blk then call come down like so sudden,no replies nd all.crazy.then we walked down 2 clarke quay.suppose 2 go krish nd mit davin nd bal but they wasnt thr.instead saw alvin,steph her cuz nd all.the usual grp,amazed tot they always go rupee rm.yup.then left 2 mit darvin nd bal at maya.then wen bak 2 krish bal brought a bottle.nd shots 2.yay ma fav.drink nd dance nd all.saw taran 2.time flew pass damn fast.Sn it was 6 alr then bal send mi home stayed awhile nd yea....then papa started calling nd all.like damn they noe alr.haha jus then saw papa nd all thank god was so happy,is like god was watching over mi.i dun eva wna do smth i wld regret.i thank u so so much.nth much came hme they abit the angry la.but then ltr it was ok alr.seem alritez 2 mi then wen 2 work.found out we were working at 180 race course.like ok no kinta so sad.haha help jayden 4 awhile nd all at kinta 1st since we were starting at 3 only.in the end only start at 4 like tat.sales was realli crazy.ok la nt bad working at 180 but i still love kinta.bila bila kinta.haha....poor jayden so confused by counting sales haha.....waited 4 him 2 ok then went home which was like 12 plus late sia.i feel so rich 2day.haha.....george return ma money.but ah thr is still andros,ayu nd jes who owe mi sia.still so many.nd so much.dun care hope 2 get bak everyting by nxt wk.must save nd hop 2 achieve the amt tat i wan by nxt wk sia.minus tis wk off thr is 4 more wks 2 go.haha......cant wait!!!
So So soorry k.i am a clubber.its fun 4 mi.haha depends.i noe i dint tell u everyting nd all.realli sorry k dint mean it.i realli dun wan u 2 be upset k.i realli feel damn bad.
I wna change phone.i dun realli like the touch function anymore so nt nice 2 msg.annoying.wna switch any1??haha.......I wan keypad phone.aaaaaaaaaaaaa............

2009-07-08T10:36:00.000-07:00

Hmmmm somewat 2day was the 1st day i wen 2 school.haha.....i wonder y.haha.....every1 kept asking mi if i was ok.then like miss mi nd hug mi all.haha dint noe i wld be so missed.haha...anyway school was quite slack 2day.had pom lec in the morning wen thru 2 lec.last wk nd tis wk.then break for 2 hours then pom tut.mr boon so annoying he give us bak our paper i passed yay so glad ma marks 4 mi 2 noe 4 u 2 find out :p then came home was studying.after awhile felt so tired.wen 2 rest 4 awhile instead i ended up slping for like 2 hrs.woke up finish up ma presentation.yup hope its ok.so scary.so sian must be formal all tmr.wah.....must wake up early tmr sia.haha......

had a dream jus nw but nt sure i cn achieve it.a dream is a dream alritez.Anyway was thinkin of ma life.gna try nd work hard but school is realli dry.so yea work hard then if cn switch course over.then study well thru out the yrs get it over wif then be4 i do anything i wna travel the world as ma job as in stewardess,try lo so cool nd fun like the 1st yr or so la or maybe do ma U 1st then go be stewardess.so cool paid 2 travel so fun.or maybe a kindergarden teacher/helper.nt sure if i can make it.will c how.then aft tat will wna work somewhr in shenton way,the cbd district.yup tats ma dream.nd nd 2 owe a bike(maybe a RR) nd a RX 8.haha yea nd 2 hav a bachlorlette's pad.By 21 i would wan 2 have travel 21 different places all arnd the world.haha....gna try ma best nd work hard.haha......

so many things gt 2 do every nite gt smth 2 do so annoying cant wait another month plus more,5 weeks,20 smth school days more.haha......cant wait.

2009-07-05T12:22:00.000-07:00

Rihanna-Te Amo......i love the song so so much.i emo listen 2 it nt emo oso listen 2 it.haha....its realli nice.

hmmmm.....somehow a lit emo-ish.Believe mi u r nt the only 1 who i keep secrets fr.But is cos ma life has 2 much of stuff happening or happened,believe mi its realli realli alot.till cn cry 1.i dun mean 2 keep anything fr u k.i keep certain things away fr ppl cos i am afraid of hurting ppl.i rather hurt maself then any1 else.i prefer 2 take it upon maself.am sorry 2 those i have hurt alritez but at times selfishness nd greed jus takes over some1.

You asked mi if i believe in truth love.i say idk.i seriously dunno anymore.i used 2 believe in it but nw all i cn say is tat it happens in movies.i lost hope in believing in it cos of ma exs,specially the 1st.Am kinda afraid of the world,the ppl cos diff ppl hav diff colors 2 each side of them.idk hw 2 say but i get trick by ppl easily nd i veri easily put trust in ppl.which causes mi 2 fall nd hard.u wldnt noe the kind of life i hav been thru since young.since ma last ex thing tat i like 2 do is jus drink nd club nd mit ma old frenz whether they guys nd gals.am jus some1 who loves 2 make any new frenz.1 things 2 gain back ur trust is 2 be more open nd talk more whether they r ppl u noe or dunno.u dunno them but if u talk 2 them nd all aft awhile u will get 2 noe them 2 yea??i realli wna help u nd wish i cld.i need time,i love ma space.its a lit hard cos i am alr so used 2 ma old lifestyle.Realli sorry.SORRY 4 all the times i made u sad or angry.jus noe u dun hav 2 worry i noe hw 2 look aft maself.

Amelia,eileen nd mi.Guys i miss u guys so so much.i so miss secondary schoold days.how crazy we were.what happened??seriously!!!we r so caught up wif school nd all tat its hardly the 3 of us only.its realli crazy.jealously?cn we mit up 1 day nd talk.tis is exactly wat i was afraid wld happen tats y i made the every fri must mit.but.....guys come on 5 yrs tgt.besties 4 like the 4th yr nw is tis how its gna be.if it is its a pity.

Leslie.i wna kill u or jus pull out all the memories of vic.cos like so stupid nd pathetic tat u r going aft some1 who might nvr be urs.i dun get wat u r still waiting on her 4.u r jus wasting ur time.for wat???leslie,pls pls leave her alone nd move on.its nt worth it.she is unresponsive u ur calls if u noe wat i mean.dun wait anymore thr is no reason 2.u dun hav 2 always run aft gals 2 get them.understand??feel realli helpless 2 c u like tat.kk darlin.ma darling toby 2 rmb we r always here understood u 2.

Lincoln u r a sweet sweet fella.jus dun always tink u r alone.everyday thr r ppl who r willing 2 walk wif u nd are.u r nvr alone.abt her u jus hav 2 risk it nd tak a gamble.give it a try u hav nth 2 lose,nth at all cos if u fall thr will be ppl 2 catch u nd be thr 4 u.as u said the 1st time u feel like tat means it diff nd it will be diff alritez.JIA YOU!!!!:p

didi,i love u nd i miss u.So glad 4 u nd vin.believe mi vin will come bak he will be bak by ur side.it will tak time so be patience.the 2 of u r jus 2 cute.but baby steps.keep mi updated alritez nd u noe ma last sentence rite hahaha........... :):):)take carez muackz!!

2009-07-01T05:46:00.000-07:00

I am so happy nd enjoying maself.had 2 weeks of hols nd nw a extended week.gt e leaning la but still like havin hols still haha.....anyway the hols were a lit emo-ish it was gr8 cos it was all worth it.i had gr8 times wif every1.thx every1 nd love u all...sorry 2 those i havent met wif.i will k 1 of the days.

anyway derek cn u learn 2 behave urself nd dun u eva dare scold any1 who i love cos i swear u wld wish u nvr did.nd if those who noe mi wld noe i do wat i say.andros u another 1 u wait.ur turn has yet 2 come.

toby nd leslie,i somehow find u guys kinda alike,haha,amazingly,anyway dun sad sad k,ur darling is here.anytime k.take carez nd jia you:)u guys r the best darlings i hav so dun give up.fighting!!

lincoln,dun every give up.life is boring without risk.risk things,take a gamble nd jus do wat u wan.u wld nvr noe until u give it a try.at least ltr u wont regret.if things dun go rite u wld still hav wonderful memories.yup.so jia you k:p

Amelia,dun assume tat eileen noe everything everytime,lit lit things i tell her cos we always meet nd i mean always.if not is either i am talkin 2 her on the phone or online.those r the tlMeS.on the other hand,some things i feel tat is a big thing/deal tat i wna tell the 2 of u tgt nd nt like oh i tld her 1st then the other 2nd.it was a big thing 4 mi aft everything i wanted 2 sit nd tell the 2 of u tgt.but jus havent had the alone time yet.best frenz or even sis dunno every single small lit details abt each other, cos the main thing is tat they noe tat no matter wat happens they noe they will be thr 4 each other nd thr is no doubt abt tat.they will always be thr 2 catch u wen u fall.

a great example wld be jes nd mi,we nvr stick 2 each other everyday she doesnt noe every single thing but anytime we r thr 4 each other,once in a awhile we wld meet nd talk nd all.we will be always sisters,no need 2 say.nd we noe tat no doubt abt it nd no qn asked.

u may think eileen is closer then mi but is only cos she meets mi alot nd wen we meet the things tat happen u dunno cos u aint thr.nd tats y sometimes wen we talk abt it u get left out.then thr r quite a no of times whr we meet nd u dun come.BUT do u noe some things u noe she doesnt.i will nvr eva ditch any1 of u 4 anything.u gotta trust mi on tat cos 4 mi i always always keep ma best bud close 2 mi nd always thr 2 protect them.nd 2 cheer them on.i always willing 2 come down 2 kap if i am free.come 2 ur school oso so many times 4 wat??i am alr in a diff school yet i always make time 4 u guys so tink abt it do u realli believe tat we arent ur truth besties anymore,if tat is realli how u feel i hav nth 2 say.the seoul garden day smth like tat happen oso rite,u wanted talk i am still waiting 4 u,the day u r free 2 call mi out 2 hav the heart 2 heart talk.still waiting noe.all i cn say is 2 object need 2 come tgt 2 make a sound.the rest is up 2 u.nt every1 is perfect i am nt eileen is nt u r nt 2.we gt our differences nd dislike abt each other nd everything but we hav all been thru thick nd thin tgt.so many memories so beautiful ones.I LOVE YOU BOTH VERI MUCH.nd i dun wan 2 lose any of u nt nw nt eva.

Nd sharon i have no idea wat happen 2 u.u jus changed so much.idk wat made u like tat.i realli liked the old 1 betta.nd i miss her.

eileen,thx 4 being thr 4 mi thx i realli appreciate it alot k.love u loads.but on something u r still the lit 1 oso..haha...so boo u nd 1 thing u need 2 learn 2 be more lady,gentle nd soft spoken.haha...1 thing dun be 2 boostful or pampered.haha...kk.baby steps.

baby:) i am gna help try nd help u 2 regain ur confidence cos u r a realli wonderful guy.nd i mean it.u jus need 2 trust ppl k.i hav issues 2 nd i am scare nd afraid of certain things k i hope u wont ask abt it cos it is ma lit secret nd smth i hav 2 live wif nd get over maself.its nt abt u.i jus hav ma diff thinkin nd feeling.cos many things hav happen be4 so i tink alot nd yea....anyway u betta treat urself betta k,give urself credit.dun always emo....haha..u r cute nd gt sexy voice nd realli sweet.oso u hav realli gr8 wonderful frenz...so wen ya out wif ya frenz go enjoy wif them dun bother abt mi.k silly fella.i will always be here 4 u.no worries:):):)

2009-06-27T09:35:00.000-07:00

i am so confused.wat is happening wif mi nd ma life.wat i wan nd wat i wan 2 achieve.its all changing.i am confused wat i wan rite nw.but i do smth.i wan every 1 in the family 2 be in gd health,peaceful,mi 2 do well in ma studies,hav a gd social life,be loved nd live life 2 the fullest nd 2 be rich.haha........yup.1 more thing i am confused abt is ma feelings.hav no idea wat is happening nd wats going on.wat to do nd wat nt 2 do.still afraid nd scare aft all tat has happen.i am so LOST!!aaaaaaahhhhhh.........haha.its ok i guess time will tell.

alritez..so so far i have been going out every single day.Since the 2nd last day of school til 2day without fail,out everyday power rite.i noe i love ma life but it will be gd if it was 2 improve somemore.haha.....

ok so well i am gna summarise the past days tat i haven been bloggin.haha....school is soso i guess.....leslie nd eileen came nd sit in 4 ma last lecture nd leslie is the man.he cld answer all of the lecturer qn haha.....joker...haha....

So far watched the ghost of girlfriends past.love the movie gr8 1.love the hindi version 2 bacheo na haseeno....then watched transformer:the revenge of the fallen twice.haha 1st time was ok 2nd time i realise the ending was kinda draggy.haha......megan fox is hot...wat i cnt help it.truth wat well it depends how u look at it.haha uhmmm if u noe wat i mean....hahaha......

There was shopping,lotsa clubbin,overnited nd partying at eileen hse,swimming,pubbing and slacking/hanging out.Also,met up wif old sec frenz BJ MCEYAY!!!yup gr8 2 c u guys again.miss u all. I MISS SECONDARY SCHOOL....booo hooo........i hav a feelin i 4gt smth but oh well movin on.

haha.......sad tat hols r coming 2 an end.but guess wat ma school jus extended it by 1 wk.so so happy.hav more time.but still hav gt 2 do e-learning.sigh sigh.stilll glad.but heard the class is planning 2 hav a bbq or outing during the 1 wk.H1N1 school close which means which we suppose 2 be gd nd stay home nd be careful still go out.cchey....haha....like i will listen.DUH....NO!!haha....

realli glad tat i hav u.but i wan u 2 noe tat u cn trust mi.i love groofing arnd so sorry k if it affects u.but wat i wan u 2 do is believe in urself.hav confidence.u r gr8,i mean it.u r ma silly flower.i will always be by ur side.lovin u.take carez alritez.

2009-05-19T22:00:00.000-07:00

tue.wk halfway thr alr.yay....cant wait 4 it 2 be over....haha...met eilee nd amelia aft school 2day at town,far east.needed 2 do some shopping.eileen needed 2 get a formal dress 4 her cousin's engagement.i needed to get ma formal wear.yup....walked arnd lookin at stuff.fr tday cn conclude i am gd,a real gd fashion consultant/dresser.haha....kk ltr then leslie came dwn 2 mit us...haha...nd we oso saw mee pok's daniel.haha...wah.ok so amelia brought a flowery skirt,i gt ma formal wear nd a leather jacket.it is so cool.awesome i love it.biker gal rmb.haha....yes...oh gettin scare ma btt(basic thoery test)on fri nd i havent even touched the book man.haha....crap.

anyway i gt home at abt 8 jus nice in time 4 red thread.haha...aft use the com 4 awhile then i decided 2 go 4 a run.ran up 2 mount emily,2 ma pri school then ran rnd nd rnd.until i was realli exhausted man.then sat on the swing nd swang 4 awhile so fun felt like a kid again.its been so long since i was last thr even worst on a swing.haha...so fun so fun..love it!!wah but realli exhausted then slowly walked home.feel so exhaust then realise i dint even eat dinner man..haha....anyway wen i gt home it was jus in time 4 ma disney channel shows...haha..yay whheeee.....gdgd!!wah veri tired.so lookin 4ward 2 butter fac on fri!!YAY!!!MA SAMMY

2009-05-18T21:00:00.000-07:00

tday is mon again.sigh sigh.....anyway wen 4 the stupid class again.waste time go school.at 1st so dint wan go la.felt like jus skipping only.but i dragged maself out of bed.shld nt pon now.shall use it ltr on.save it 4 ltr.haha...then came home did tuts.feel so confused.haha...then aft tat suppose 2 go bugis get ma formal wear but was so lazy.so in the end dint go.stay home.but wen 2 fetch mummy instead.haha...yay!!!

2009-05-18T13:34:00.000-07:00

haha.....sat was a secret nd sun was an affair..
haha....sat slept in.til afternoon.then woke up the usual.then wen silat raod temple.then came home use the com wen 4 a ride on the bike.then came bak cos papa nd mummy wanted 2 go 2 the kallang indian temple.yup then wen 4 dinner.aft tat gt rdy 2 go rupee.2 mummy nd papa i was going 4 midnight movie.haha...hehe sneaky huh!!!but yea...then i missed the last train.but thk god thr was still the bus so i took 166 down 2 the parliment hse thr nd walked over 2 clarke quay.met rajdev thr.tgt we walked 2 rupee.jus as we gt thr we met alvin,steph nd kaka.haha...nd the rest is a secret.haha.....wna noe,ask mi if u wan.

sun is the even bester day 4 mi.haha....it was a realli fun work day..love loving it.i realli love it alot nw.KINTA RUX!!haha...yay the ppl thr r crazy nd great at the same time.haha...too much 2 write....but 4 mi sun is always ma day.cos i feels like diff i feel away fr the world well at least nt the bel the poly gal.haha...i can be wat i wan.crazy nd nonsense.no 1 cares instead think they love it.haha...wat 2 do ppl jus love mi.haHA...:D

2009-05-15T23:51:00.000-07:00

its friday 2day.ma favourite day cos it proves the wk is over..haha...yay which i like.cos no school 4 like the nxt 2 days.haha anyway suppose 2 go do some shopping by maself but cld nt realli find smth i like.then abiel came nd mit mi 1st.then brought ma mint brownie fr the brownie factory.YUM YUM so delicious.but aaaaaaa fatening man....haha....then walked to ps where we walked arnd while waiting 4 eileen nd mimi.nd guess wat i took abt an hr 2 finish up the brownie wow cool huh...haha....then wen 2 eat at kopitiam at ps.then aft tat walked 2 the grand cathay whr we watched our movie of the wk.suppose 2 watch angels nd demon but it was sold out so instead we decided 2 watch henry poole was here.no sure wat 2 say abt the movie.boring but gt morale.yup.anyway...saw kal nd sam thr.haha.....as usual kal was like sat si akal baibi ji.haha...crazy nonsense fella.haha.then the movie we all walked down to ma hse thr.waited 4 their 67 2 come then i left 4 hme.reached bak at abt 10 plus.yup...haha...standard la every weedend sure come home late 1.haha....but comin hme early no diff cos i still slept like realli realli late.haha...well tats my style man!!haha

2009-05-14T21:51:00.000-07:00

wellll let mi c what 2 update.wed had the ambassadorial thing.wen off aft school cos actualli suppose 2 mit ppl 1 but then as usual u noe gt ps.so jus stayed home 4 awhile lo then aft tat came bak 2 school.was in the same group as nas.shawn was our in-charge.then played some virus game which had 2 do like a chicken dance aft tat.toopid.then stop at novena papa nd mummy.fetch then it was like playing hide at seek thr.mummy nd i.haha....then gt home was so tired jus used the com 4 awhile til like 12.30 then went 2 slp was realli tired.

then thurs ended kinda ended quite fast.was thinking whether 2 go 4 the nypal orientation.al last i did dragged nas along.haha....stayed thr 4 like 45 mins then tld them we had 2 go.realli tired alr.cant stay 2 long in school.haha...came home the usual lo.haha...nth much...

2009-05-11T22:34:00.000-07:00

its mon 2day.start of the wk again.so saddening...haha its ok gd thing is tat its end at 12 so nt bad nt bad....haha....anyway 2day dun realli hav plans.gna go home do nd revise all ma tutorials nd then aft tat at like 5 plus wen 2 mit abiel at btp to play pool.actualli had no idea whr was mambo.cos i stay at seragoon wat makes ppl tink i wld go all the way 2 btp 2 play pool wen ma area gt so many placei can play pool.haha....wen i reach abiel was playing wif his fren.then i played wif him at 1st dint wan cos gt so many ppl then like so malu but then like jus play la.haha...out of 3 times i won once.the 2nd time.haha nt bad rite.cchey.but ok la i still tink i need alot of practice.haha then andros,eugene nd some guy came bak then let them play wif abiel.sn aft eileen came 2.the we wen 2 market 2 hav dinner.abiel say he was amazed at our dinner haha....i cn conclude guys realli eat veri fast 1.haha...serious man.then chat chat all then abiel headed back while eileen nd i wen 2 np.actualli wanted 2 find duo hua 1 but so paiseh so in the end eileen kinda showed mi arnd.then tried 2 look 4 rahul,toby nd glenn...haha....it was funny.had an idea it was realli gd but eileen dint wan 2 use it.the idea was shout out the name then c who turn bak lo will be them lo.haha...yup then cab 2 adam road then took the bus home.yup.....feel so tired some how......dint msg much 2day..sigh sigh.....so happy love talkin 2 sam sam..he is as crappy nd nonsense as mi la...haha.....funny funny!!!:D

2009-05-11T01:38:00.000-07:00

yay....sunday 2day so glad man.haha ma fav day....but 2day nt realli lovely.haha....stupid singtel ppl came down 2day.so annoying lo.then they find fault here nd thr lo so irratating.then they say wat hav 2 top up every single person's card 4 them.then siao crazy out of their mind.so free meh.wah lao.nd so we did..jonathan oso was thr.then cos marilyn dint come 2day then toopid suresh instead of picking sam sam 2 go he pick mi 2 do redemption.at 1st it was ok la but when it came 2 closing it was SO STRESSFUL!!headache man...we suppose 2 hav balance xtra la but dint.so gt pro then keep adjusting here nd thr.then finally it balance.so sorry 2 those who decided 2 stay on 2 help mi.THANKS ALOT....so sorry k.haha.....anyway thank u sam sam such a sweet heart but so TS...haha...aiyo,but cute la tat fella.but aft tat nite i was glad cos i felt i found a nice sweet close nitez fren.sounds wrong but i hope u get wat i mean.haha but dunno whether he feels the same c-ing he is so POPULAR.nd gt alot of GALS!!haha....tis wk veri chaotic....but its ok la i still love working thr...love it love it love it!!!but seriously tday was super duper busy sia no time 2 msg oso la..then cards kept coming nd coming.nd it kept running out 2.haha...then i had 2 bug suresh again nd again.which is fun...like 2 disturb him...the he ask mi which guy i wan he will help mi then he say no la dun be shy say,say la so i said sam sam...haha it was realli funny.....well all i cn say is ma fun-ness on sun cant be explain u hav 2 be thr 2 noe it all...haha....best job ever!!duo hua nd patrick i miss u.sorri la kinta a/c gt messed up so cldnt c u guys.....nxt wk k.i will try 2 rmb 2 bring cam!!haha........must tak pics k..

2009-05-10T14:38:00.000-07:00

rite i am bak....haha.hmm...well was kinda bad day 4 mi la but still ok la.jus gt realli pissed nd annoyed.well 1st of,tday was suppose 2 mit the tz gang at bugis 2 eat seoul garden.haha....it was gna be like a tz outing again la but jus nt realli all the tz ppl.k anyway we all suppose 2 mit at like 1 but guess wat all late.well used 2 it alr la.i reached at like 1.37 like tat then waited 4 like an hour plus.apparently leslie was alr thr but he dint come find mi.yup then while waiting mimi suddenly msg mi say u guys go ahead without her.cos when she msg no 1 reply.so she gt off the bus wen opp nd took the bus home.rite.nd they hav 2 phones i hav no idea 4,nd 4 mi 1 i more then enuf.waste money.then ask her come bak she took ages.in the end she dint even come bak.her last msg.once i am done,i will come look 4 u guys.i will msg u later you guys hav dinner 1st.but guess wat she dint even msg.aiya 4get it.then vic came 2 ltr on.every1 knew main purpose of the day was 2 eat at seoul garden.but she was like i dun wan 2 eat.then ask y is it she gt no money cn help her pay 1st.she say no she gt money.then ask y.she jus say dun wan eat then say call her when we eat alr.then we were discussing wat 2 do nw wen she jus walked off.like WTF!!!it was realli starting 2 piss mi off.freaking wth is wrong wif ppl tday.all wake up the wrong side of the bed is it.we nt showing at attitude y the heck they showing 4.then nvm we all decided 2 change plans nd instead 2 hav seoul garden as dinner.called uncle 2.then while waitin 4 him nd his fam 2 come down i went 2 mit ma parents 2 go temple.yup wen 2 the kallang temple 4 awhile 4 the prayers all then aft tat wen bak 2 bugis again 4 seoul garden.i felt so honour every1 was serving mi.1 reason maybe was cos i was the only gal thr.haha....but it was realli sweet of them.nd leslie nd wc kept fighting who was the sweetest 2 mi.haha....it was scary cos the amount of food in ma place build ma 2 a mountain.they kept feeding mi.ah yo i was so fulll....haha.....then uncle came wif his wife daughter nd youngest son.so cute.haha....then everytime i look away thr was more food in ma plate.aiyo...i cld hardly finish ma food la.haha....it was realli fun la.but at the end it became realli disgusting those thr will noe y.haha....ohoh...did i mention i met yan zhen nd her bf 2.haah....so sweet couple.yup....at seoul garden i was the 1st 2 be fulll haha....2 much.so poor thing they kept bullying melvin.poor mel mel..haha....cute la he.anyway aft tat we walked a lit.at 1st leslie nd wc walk mi home but uncle say walk 4 him.in the end i walked home myself.wen home dolled up a lit then wen 2 mumbai underground.harry nd karan nd tweety nd sam was thr.haha...they r all so nice fellas.sam say i look diff...haha...do i??anyway chatted wif harry nd all...aaawww I MISS HIM.haha so long nvr mit la...hope we cn mit up more often..kk sweety.took full advantage of the free flow.haha 10-12 le...drank realli fast then kept refillin haha....haha...yup then aft tat wen home.no 1 realli said anything abt mi being late wow cool....i like.but no la it wont be a habit.i realise i going every wk 2 club at least once.haha....wow nice haha....anyway tired wna go slp alr so late alr tmr still gt work.nitez nitez!!!
:D

2009-05-09T21:23:00.000-07:00

heyya sorry have been going out alot nd then coming home late.so posts nt out yet or actualli no time 2 blog.hahaha...oopss....kk it will be up soon k promise cross ma diny winy heart.
hahaha....cheese!!

2009-05-07T13:24:00.000-07:00

dint go school tday...head felt realli heavy but the gd was the flu was gone.i slept in.woke up at abt 12.thinkin whether shld i donate blood tmr or nt.i am scare but i wna help...ahhh....stress again.all the pros be4 kalaunty left was all bak.tis time we hav no solutions at all nd every1 seems 2 be mia.nd i worrys mi 2 c mummy struggles 2 find solutions.but i dunno wat i cn do oso...ma hse is in choaz nw...ahhh....its all happening again wat am i to do???......

2009-05-06T21:59:00.000-07:00

ok tday felt like a realli realli long day man...suppose 2 end school at 1.50 but the tutor jus kept talkin nd talkin.tat we were let out late then suppose 2 mit wc then go bak tgt.but as usual he was late again cos he say he ended his prac late.so its ok i let him off.but then he was very hungry ask mi follow him go eat.1st we decided go ang moh kio hub then changed 2 jurong pt then sp then tampines then tiong then toa payoh,causeway pt then in the end we went 2 jurong pt.haha....long long journey but ok la cos gt company then met melvin thr.1st thing 1st,we went 2 eat cos we were all starving.so bad la wc physical kept bully melvin nd melvin was jackin him.haha...ltr on les came 2.it was his last day at work.so yea...he spent 18 bucks on the catching a toy machine jus 2 get mi a pink stitich.haha....jus cos i said it was cute.crazy man tat fella.but thk u so much,darling.then waited 4 leslie play max tune.then play daytona...i love tat game i WON them haha....YAY wheee.....i was always gd at tat game...been playin it since young man but on the com la nt the arcade.but no alr la so sad...haha...yup then les had 2 start work nd we left lo.haha....yup...so tired.sick..been sqneezing the whole day nd gt a lit headache nd feel a fever coming abt.aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh......sick hope nt swine flu!!!hahaa kidding kiddin...dun tink will go school tmr...wna rest nd slp in.yup!!!haha.........

2009-05-05T21:44:00.000-07:00

tday is tue.hav gt the ambassadorial team interview tdya.at the same time gna met amelia oso tday..aft lecture which i sat through dunno 4 wat cos i knew it alr,we went koufu 2 eat.entering time i saw vijesh.haha.... i saw tat '1' at koufu.so cute.yan zhen said he look like a german.haha...weird but ok.haha..then ate thr aft tat went 2 tak temp again them met wc he was at his cca which was community service haha...he was helping out at the donating drive,i wanted 2 help donate but u scare of needles.have always been scare of needles..eeeeeeeeeeeeeee........haha....yup then went 4 class...aft classes had 2 rush home cos amelia was gna come over.came home slack nd talk talk all...then i gt rdy 4 ma interview which was at 7.30.jus be4 tat eileen came.so nt 2 bad.they wen off tgt nd i wen 4 ma interview which took place realli fast.hope i get selected lo..haha...plsplspls...haha...yup tats abt it came home eat watch tv.kiran was nt feelin well his stitch came off nd kept tearin.felt so helpless...wish i cld do smth.jia you kiran.u r ma hero...take carez man...

2009-05-04T20:32:00.000-07:00

it monday again...haha...gd way of starting of the week...were chattin wif 2 sweet guys....they r the sweetest...haha....ok tday was raining nd all so nice 2 realli slp in.nd jus pon school but nw i am in poly how 2 pon alr..i miss sec school whr anything u wan jus pon only.dun care...haha....its ok am gna persevere.yup..jia you belbel...anyway gt up at 7.20 nd get rdy all 4 school...wc was late again.wen ahead without his huh!!who as him late haha....then met erlyn nd quickly walked 2 school,we dogde the takin of temperature..haha....headed straight 4 class cos late alr...haha...so shagged...so lit rest.thk gd it was only 3 hrs of school then cn go home..so glad....haha yay.....tday so tired but dunno cant seem 2 slp.well who cares...nth much aft tat...met jes nd all slack 4 awhile then came home did all ma hwk nd revise.yup...gd rite i noe i noe...haha...tats all 4 tday i guess...ohoh....talked 2 so many ppl online tday it was so fun made it small nd filled ma whole screen up.haha...then talked 2 patrick nd duo hua crazy fella but nice 2 msn wif...haha...yaya gtg nw cya

2009-05-04T05:06:00.000-07:00

its sunday again.i realise ma sundays always pass veri fast.i guess it the day tat i enjoy the most maybe haha....yup sam sam dint come tday.nd fardeeana no more working alr.so sad..but they were replacements.1 call koon hua but cos i cld nt hear him nd he dint wan 2 repeat so i called him duo hua nd the other was uncle patrick/patrick the starfish....haha they r funny nd crazy guy...so fun workin wif them.haha...it was crazy la tday.gt so many things happen.then suresh kehna scolded by jonathan bcoz of the makeup artist last wk.poor thing....then poor mi 1st kehna match made 2 william by duo hua nd patrick.then ltr 2 goerge by suresh nd sara...i dint noe i work wif such crazy ppl.haha....work was realli fun tday....haha....i tink i am like gettin used 2 every1 thr alr....well i shld cos its been 3 months plus alr working thr.haha.....love the job.haha....duo hua nd patrick kept disturbing mi la..so mean.then we were fighting over 2 dollars..haha it was realli funny then they finally gave up say they will treat mi nxt time.haha...then the 2 of them they way they ate the vanailla bread so cute like kids like tat...the cream was all over haha....arvin stopped by ma work again.tis is the 2nd time....so nice of him.yup then ltr sweet came 2 mit mi.haha was actualli tot he was kiddin but he realli did.i was so surprise but thks 4 coming 2 visit mi.then waited 4 mi 2 pack up.pack up was realli fun...patrick maths is so freaking gd.wow...it was amazing the way he calculated.marilyn nd i were stunned.haha.....then walked bak nd he waited til i gt ma pay then wen 2 the car nd talk talk all the way till like 1 plus.it was nice talkin 2 him....in a way he is so like mi.but yea.....then dropped mi off wrong place but its ok thks..haha.....then came home use the com.actualli suppose 2 use till like 2 then go slp but then he dragged til 2.30 then alan ask 2 chatt wif him which i did...until 5...haha....can u believe it..but its realli nice 2 talk 2 him.sweet fella....sometime nonsense nd siao.but yea nice 2 talk 2....hahaa....needed 2 slp aft tat was freaking tired...have been slpin late like everyday....haha...power sia i.haha....i realli stretching maself.haha lovin it....

2009-05-03T06:00:00.000-07:00

slept late yst.jus couldnt slp.ok well tday was out shopping it was suppose 2 make mi cheer up.yup...well ok la it did la a lit i guess....haha....brought some stuff but the main thing i suppose 2 buy i dint buy which was BAG.haha....damn...haha....went far east 4 shopping nd all saw some cool stuff..haha....tot of buying nxt time.haha...yup then aft tat went 2 eileen church 4 awhile...her church is realli nice.the architecture is superb.wow....the art sculpture is realli gd nd awesome..haha....kinda love the place.nice....then aft tat were suppose 2 go t1(tampines 1) 2 meet wc,les nd uncle.otw thr eileen was like lazy go all the way thr cos so far.in the end we gt off halfway at bugis nd had dinner nd talk talk thr.at the same time i was kinda prankin alan.tat fella so cute 2 prank.funny haha....then were planning 2 go zouk at the same time 2 crash justin's bdae party.then eileen oso wanted 2 go.so she asked her mum then actualli cn alr but she so toopid she go use ppl name nd dint inform them,so in the end it was ruined.haha.it was toopid.haha...in the end arvin clubbin plans were cancelled oso cos his frens were still suffering fr hang overs fr the previous clubbing nite.haha....thk god i dint go 4 tat 1.haha...instead his fren nd he plus mi when 2 slack at farrer park thr nd drank a lit la...open 1 bottle.haha...another of his fren joined us 2.haha.....then half way sonu called mi say they gna club ask mi go 2,they were at krish.then i was like say so late i was wif arvin alr.then he say nvm go home change nd come they will be thr til 6am.i wld feel bad if i jus ditch arvin like tat.in the end arvin nd i walked 2 boat quay.half way stop at og cos it was raining heavily.we sat thr nd talked talked.he was diff...he was realli nice.he kept makin me learn his bro hand shake thing.haha...silly fella..haha...gt 2 krish then like chat awhile wif sonu all then left la wen 2 some chinese club taat arvin they all wen the nite be4.he met all his frenz all then we left.haha....yup came then he dropped mi home aft tat then he left 4 home..the lucky ting was i sneak out of ma hse nd sneak bak in jus nice a few mins be4 ma bro came bak....am i lucky or wat...haha....gdgd rite...came home at 4 plus haha...its like a rountine like tat 2 come home late every weekend...haha...ok gna go slp alr nitez nitez:)

2009-05-01T19:40:00.000-07:00

tday is labour day...public holiday..suppose 2 go out.but bcoz of last night lost all mood.it feels like 1 jan all over again.jus nt as bad.i realli hav the feelin tis yr is gna suck.it alr started wif a terrible start nd is going a lit sucky.

i realli wonder at time am i realli tat bad,tat lousy tat no wan wld wan mi,specially u!!did i do smth or smth i dint do tat u go farther nd farther away.tat bad until u wont even give mi a chance.u dint even give it a try.i realli wonder whether it was mi.i dun believe i cnt be as gd as her.if u wan mi 2 be her i will 4 u.but i guess it doesnt matter nw does it.whywhywhy..........i lost all hope, i realli hav no more energy 2 fight it anymore.jus losing ma grip.thing wif u is tat u dun even give mi a chance 2 be ur fren,2 be close 2 u even wen i cant be wif u...u will always be in ma heart,am gna try lettin u go slowly it will be realli hard but i need to.cos ppl r tellin mi tat i am waitin upon smth tat cn nvr be mine nd it would be pointless going aft it.i feel miserable.arvin said tis "dun shear tears 4 some1 tat is nt gna be thr 2 catch it".it was realli nice of him.such a sweetheart.haha....so nw i am gna let u off perharps u wld be happier without mi in ur life.jus tink i hav died.alritez...realli sorry if i trouble u or anything...enjoy urself k nd dun be so easily influnce k.u r a great guy.believe in urself.kk.gna concentrate on ma studies nd ma frenz.gna occupate maself wif thing 24/7.kept maself busying.exhaust maself,stretch maself.school,cca,frenz,clubbing,nd working(oh gna more jobs.nw gt 1 gna get another sn.if i still hav time will get more....haha).anyway all i wna say is thks for how u used 2 be thr 4 mi.take care nd goodbye.......dun worry i wont disturb u anymore cos i tink tat wld be wat u wan 2.take carez...:)hope u find some1 perfect 4 u.......:D

2009-05-01T06:30:00.000-07:00

heyhey.....hmmm yaya i noe i havent blog in a long long time.been busy nd everything.yup...anyway..its thurs.so glad tis wk has only 4 days.nd its thurs alr.so glad.days r actualli passing kinda pass.gdgd i like.anyway tday school ended at like 5.LATE....then after tat i had 2 quickly rush 2 orchand.eileen ended early nd was waiting 4 mi thr.hahaa....took the train down tgt wif bai nd yan zhen.haha...otw nas msged mi ask if i was gna mit ponyio cos he took the the train aft mi.haha.....then met eileen at the wisma starbucks.then we were chatting nd all.i msged kamal nd ask if he was working then he said yea nd asked mi 2 come in.tld him ltr on.the nxt time i noe he walked by.omg i havent met him in ages.but wow wat a transformation.he looks gd.he looks so cute.haha....

ltr dian came 2 followed by lincoln.then i cant believe i tld them aabt the dumb bell thing maself.cant i be more dumb.i tot they knew ok well nw they noe.toopid mi.haha...then we went in 2 nike 2 c nd talk 2 kamal.haha...it was funny.then tld him abt the 'happenings'.but had 2 leave aft awhile cos we needed 2 head 4 the movie,his boss was thr nd cos he kept saying eileen's two bf were waiting 4 her.haha......so we walked fr wisma 2 taka whr dian ate but lincoln was 2 stuborn 2 eat.then we continued walkin 2 grand cathay.otw abiel met us.the walk thr was fun.at the same time it give us all time 2 talk.yup....the bad thing was ppl kept jacking mi which was annoying.but nah dint get angry.haha...we watched the international.a lit boring ba.yup oh ya saw balraj.aft the movie they had their smokin break again...aiyo...haha...we oso saw the nice fairlady.it kinda looks ugly i rather a rx 8 to it.it body is realli ugly but i guess the engine is nice.haha...hail a cab 4 abiel otherwisehis dad wld kill him if he's late.on the other hand we continued 2 ps 2 eat.was dying of hunger.cos actualli suppose 2 eat wif mimi.but she bailed on us again.so yea.we ate at mac.forced every1 2 eat smth.dun wan 2 be responsible 4 anything.haha....be4 we left,we went toilet.eileen make so much noise over a small cockroach which she cld c nd keep her eyes on.wow it was alot of noise a lit annoying.then she even teared a lit over it.then she kept blaming mi.cos i dint wan 2 kill it.aft tat we head ooout 4 another smoke break.haha...then jus decided 2 sit outside nd jus talk nd all.then slowly ppl on music nd started getting emo nd all.tats when i tot of playing ma favourite game 'dare nd truth'.haha...YAY....whee.....its between us.if u wna noe 2 bad who ask u dint come.haha..but it was seriously damn damn funny haha....

i hop some1 gt her wish thks 2 mi.then ltr on sonu they all came by.tot they were jokin but yea surprisingly they were there,sonu,bal nd sunny.like wth.ok aft awhile eileen mum kept calling cos it was alr 2 plus.after awhile they all went home but i continued 2 slack wif sonu,bal,sunny.yup....they were playing some game which they did nt wna tell mi abt.said it was fr zee tv.nd wat makes them tink i watching zee tv man.might is either disney or mtv or star worlds man...zee tv nah...haha......then we headed home 2.according 2 sonu sunny was gna send mi home but y wasnt it mention be4.so nvm it was ok i tld them 2 go ahead i wld be fine.i wld jus walk home.2 mi it felt sunny dint realli wan 2.anyway yup they went ahead.nd i walked home.but thing is aft they left idk y.i felt something.like i gt pinched real hard tat i jus wanted 2 cry.i dint.cos they were still kinda driving pass mi nd all.i gt 2 the mrt saw no 1 arnd then sat thr 4 awhile nd cried a lit.cos i was afraid if i did it at home mummmy nd papa wld be worried cos on top of tat i was coming home late.yup...no 1 2 call oso.so yup jus emo-ed 4 awhile nd headed home nd face the music.haha...

wow it was so fun at the same time so tiring.reached home only 4 plus close to 5.haha....alritez gna go slp alr.ma panda eyes r growing.hahaa...........aaahhhhhhh so ugly.haha!!

2009-04-24T14:24:00.000-07:00

ok well i noe ma blog has been veri dead the past few days.it is cos somehow i am always out...haha....therefore u cn conclude tat i hav gotten alot of scolding lately.haha....badbad bel-in-da!!haaha.....sigh school.so so glad its fri.MY FAVOURITE DAY OF THE WEEK!!haha..yay!!i'm lovin' it!so far school has been ok la but somehow i feel i go school study then look 4ward to going out aft tat if thr is plans,if nt home sweet home.somehow feel like a nerd but at the same time slacker cos i havent done any work at all...haha oops...i feel so sian.still wna enjoy.

i dunno y but nw i feel like being a teacher.idk y.i guess i miss the kids.i love kids.teacher maybe primary school but kindergarden wld be the best la.love the kids thr.so adorable so innocent.secondary school nono...NO WAY tats a totall disaster.havoc chaoz..haaha...ship wreck students there are horrible.haha....nd 2 tink i used 2 be 1!!shout out 2 all secondary school teachers:u r gd,i really hand it 2 u guyz..keep it up nd jia you!!haha....yup....

thr wld be more up on wat happen tday nd so on....
haha so stay tuned!!
:))wheee

2009-04-23T22:40:00.000-07:00

well am gna kinda summarize the whole wk at school fr tue-thurs.haha...well more or less.its wake up in the morning get rdy nd all then go school.then school school school blah blah blah...then aft tat go bak home.haha....so lazy nd tired.bag heavy gt so many thing 2 carry 2 school.thats y i so wna drive.easy transport,at the same time portable locker.haha....yup.wow anyway thurs i forgot 2 bring ma phone 2 school but still kiran came 2 fetch mi.was so happy nd it was so cool.haha....love 2 ride on his bike.it was so cool.haha...love it love it love it.as usual when he ride reach home veri early.haha...saw sandeep 2 dint noe he was in nyp 2.haha...who cares....yup so far school has been ok nd fine...but i hope i cn keep ma focus on ma studies.i wna do well,nonono nt jus well.really well the best gpa points.yup...jia you belbel.tats it 4 nw.gtg.byebye!!

2009-04-20T23:01:00.000-07:00

welll tday's the 1st day of school.woke up really early.then gt changed nd dressed up all.papa dropped me at novena mrt.thr i was suppose 2 meet wc 1st ten go school tgt.he was late.haahaa...hey i was early.gd news.then met erlyn too nd aft which we walked in tgt.once inside we parted(wc nd i).haha...sound so weird...haha....yup 1st day of school was gd cos it was only 3 hrs nd only in com lab.we did some crossword puzzle.haha...once the teacher left we all started copyin.it was funny...haha.aft tat took the bus 72 down 2 t1 2 mit uncle...yup aft tat long story nt gna write it all out.somehow in a way i dunno y i feel kinda alone..idk how 2 put it!!
haha....anyway tats it 4 nw...wna slp!!nitez:P

2009-04-18T03:55:00.000-07:00

rite tday is SAT....so tired.a lit annoyed abt u noe...yup hahaha...wake up early.was being a gdgd gal.follow papa nd mummy go temple,shopping 4 household stuff.yup feel like a aunty carryin so many supermarket bags.haha....then was all gd then follow everywhr.then at the end off it ask mummy if i cld go vivo.haha...then mummu was like no wonder u so gd tday,gt smth behind it.hahaha....well all i cn say is i am gOOd......haha....ate gt rdy nd left 2 vivo saw ryan and siti.talked 2 them 4 awhile.then left 2 alvin's bdae.haha....wont say much cos the rest is private alr.haha....as usual if ya wna noe ask mi.haha.....:p
came home again at like 3 plus.2nd nite a the row!haha...betta stop nt gd!!haha...rite.
haha....realli tired 2 blog...sorry peeps!!

2009-04-17T04:12:00.000-07:00

hmmm nt gna talk much abt fri.it has been a realli long nd fun day.nd i only came home like a 3 plus.am dead beat.haha...realli tired gna slp gd nitez:)u wna noe wat happen ask mi.haha...4 nw ZZzzzzz!!!!

2009-04-16T20:32:00.000-07:00

wah tired...tday woke up realli early.had 2 be in shld at 8am 4 registration for the orientation.yup...was a lit boring.yup met a few ppl nd all..ok la nt 2 bad.jus a lit tiring 2.came home only at 6pm.havin headache.yup dun tink i wld be going tmr.gna go out enjoy enjoy all nd hav fun...yup nth much!!lazy 2 blog alr..haha...ooppss daisy!!haha...ciaoz!!cya

2009-04-15T22:27:00.000-07:00

hmmm welll tday...was suppose 2 go visit leslie.1 day 1 person.but was 2 tired nd i woke up realli realli late..in the end,wen 2 kap to meet eileen nd abiel oso.yup he joined us cos he was too bored at home.yup.haha...was using loppie at kap nd chattin wif ppl nd all but then he died.yup...so sad then cldnt blog or chat anymore.yup...anyway we stayed on 4 sushi nd 2 chit chat nd all...we were thr till like 9 like tat we finally left nth much la tday...tmr orientation!!ahaha...

2009-04-14T22:50:00.000-07:00

oooo lala....tday long long day..1st woke up at like 6 plus 7.quickly gt ready nd headed 4 temple.it is vesakhi tday..haha...wished every1.then was in temple fr like 7.40-9.15 like that.there were so many ppl.it was crazy.nice nice food haha...felt like lunch.ha...then wen 4 the dental appointment it was weird cos i was still in ma suit.haha...so malu...haha..then mummy very embarrassing.she go disturb tis 1 guy.haha...he look like indo-chinese.yup...haha...then by the time came bak home it was like 11 smth so in the end dint go kk.no time.papa nd mummy wen bak 2 the temple while i stay home nd changed out nd waited 4 eileen nd mimi arrival.haha....yup eileen reached wen i was bathin,so i made her wait outside 4 while haha...poor thing.ha. yup as usual mimi was late again.like DUH!!...haha...then we jus wen straight 2 bugis nd took a train down 2 tampines 2 visit uncle.yup...haha...met sharon thr.she was thr early.waiting 4 us.we quickly wen 2 get our tix then checked out the tampines mall arcade.kinda big.then went 2 get smth 2 eat at the same time dropped by uncle t1 said hi then left.yup.then had 2 quickly leave cos movie was startin.yup we watched 'The jonas brother:3D live concert'.yup.it was nice nd cool.aft which we wen bak 2 t1 2 mit uncle suppose 2 follow him go white sands 2 spy.haha...met ayu then wc nd melvin 2.yup sharon left soon aft.we wen white sands 4 smth undercover.haha...which was terrible.haha....aft tat we all left 4 home,all took the same train way bak.i gt off 1st which was at bugis then walked home...saw alvin golan nd harveen otw bak. hate it hate it hate it...i had a weird feelin inside mi.as if i gt played.i feel so horrible.sooo... i dun even noe wat 2 say.
i admit i am realli stupid realli stupid nd the stupidity nvr seem 2 stop 4 mi.
or am i jus realli gullible....
i tink tats alll 4 nw...

2009-04-13T23:46:00.000-07:00

tis is monday.having those monday blues..last week left before school starts.yup....anyway eileen nd mi suppose 2 mit.but we nt sure whr we going yet.we were to choose between going to visit uncle,wc or leslie.in the end we wen 2 visit wc.then walked arndnd explore the shop he worked in called action toyz.haha...then eileen brought a hello kitty watch(it was a kiddy watch)haha...i helped her set it then put it on 4 her.then went down 2 eat eat nd all.then thr was tis guy tat keep staring la...idiot...wc left early cos his supervisor called him nd asked abt him.then eileen nd i stay on 2 explore the rest of IMM.then aft which we slowly walked 2 the mrt along the way we chit chatted.yup...haha...tats all i cn rmb haha....sorry stm:):)

Sexy Sunday:p

2009-04-12T11:59:00.000-07:00

haha....ok wellll gt alot of things 2 say but am nt gna write everything down.too much 2 write alr.ok tday yuresh had his bbq thing at his hse but i dint go cos had work @ singtel.haha...yup but all i cn say is that i am glad i dint ditch work 4 the BBQ cos i realli loved work tday.SSSSSOOOOO.....FFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNN.haha...yup we kept disturbing sam sam wif prince william.it was realli funny.i realise i like 2 disturb ppl.heehee..Among all the sun by far i love tis 1.time passed realli fast 2.the day ended so fast i realli dint wan it 2 end so soon.but end....even when school starts i will nt quit it.haha...NEVER!!ha......i will stop here nw cos the rest is 4 mi 2 noe nd rmb!!ssshhhhssshhhhhhh......

2009-04-11T00:45:00.000-07:00

rite...tday 1st of all i am WORK-FREE!!haha...but suppose 2 mit mimi nd gangai in the morning 4 lunch,2 go nike nd 2 watch jonas bro but came home only at like 3 plus-4 plus!!but still i woke up like 11 smth..toopid alarm kept ringin!!so finally decided 2 wake up.at 1st tot no 1 was home but then something's amiss.all kiran stuff was all over the table nd sofa,his helment,ggloves,jacket all still thr.he dint go!!but is tat a gd thing.i had a funny feelin.the room door was lock.knocked, kiran is home but still something nt rite...after awhile kiran went 2 slp.nd aft a long long while papa,mummy nd sukh came home.i was on the com as usual.did bloggin 4 3some.hahaha...then aft tat went temple aft so long.miss it!!did chaupee(prayers) 7 times.papa was dosing off.then mummy kept pokin him.haha...then light diva all.then drink tea all.then tld papa drop mi at vivo i needed 2 collect ma stuff.yup.gt chopped again.aiyo.sha,siti,su nd the xuewen was workin.haha...run aways aft awhile.gt like 2 more rings haha then took the train down 2 seragoon .went 2 mit jes di.haha we sat nd talked gt updated all.haha...yup hehehe..secret..shhsshh...then came bak home realise i no keys nd gr8 kiran nt home.called papa jus nice they passin by took mi wif them go drop maji(ma grandma)home.yup...then at the hse i met tis rabbit so cute rite...while they talked i played wif him.haha...they realli talk very long then denied mi of food..belbel was so hungry la..then i started talked baby language.haha...then we went 2 beach road 2 get food.then saw ah seng nd gang papa old kakis,more then 30 yrs fren/bro.haha...ma dad,joe,the best haha..tats wat they said.haha sat nd chat wif them.tats when i brought up the tattoo topic.quite a failiin so instead i went on 2 shoppin.haha...tat was gd.ma mum allow.she say i cn take money fr papa nd go shoppin nxt wk 4 school stuff..haha...wow spendin time wif them aft so long.i feel like i am their 5 yrs old gal again.specially daddy's girl!!haha....so tired.ohoh nd i found out a lit abt wat happened tis mornin which was ma bro wanted 2 pack his things nd leave the hse.y i dunno i dunno anything else.tis is wat i dun like they always treat mi like the lit gal everything dunno nd shld nt noe.but i am a big gal nw.i cn tak it nd wna noe..i try 2 cover up as much as i cn 4 kiran...
Dun leave mi!!stop leavin.wats wif all the bros man.is like all 1 by 1 wna leave.1st was sukhwant,then prisendra,followed by manbir.stop thr.dun wan anymore.pls stay!!pls... ...

midnite fever

2009-04-10T04:25:00.000-07:00

hmmmm..........heyya.its fri tday..last day of ma working day.woke up pwetty late.12 smth.no 1 was at home.sukhwant went 2 work.kiran went 4 singtel xtra shopfront.yup then papa nd mummy went 2 mit aiyah.i dun like.it scares mi when they always go 2 him.its scary dunno wat he will say.i scare of him.alr the last time go c him i cried.nd i cld nt stop tinkin abt wat he say.jus 2 tink abt it... ...i dun wna tink.make it all go away.

movin on.i jus watchin tv made ma own food,bath burbon.he is so white nw.ma handsome chi ko pek!haha....ohoh style his hair 2(to the left).haha..damn cute.yup then slowly made ma way 2 work was realli early though so jud decided 2 shop shop a bit 1st.haha...i finally gt ma head bands nd then i gt 3 rings nd 1 pair of earrings!yup then when i gt 2 work i gt chopped.aiyo i tell u i tink thr is jus smth wif tz stuff nd chopping!!hahaha....vivo was crazy.so many ppl.whr did all tis ppl come fr man!!gosh i had 2 squeeze ma way away the arcade.yup...then ltr on uncle came down wif izuwan.then victoria ask izuwan y u here uncle not here le.haha then izuwan was like thr he here.it was realli funny!!haha...uncle did serious shoppin...crazy pperson reminds mi of taitais.haha...a bit gay but yea hehe...tat crazy person oso gt mi smth.at 1st i tot he gt flour nd all 2 punk mi!!but then it was wrapped very nice nd all.so nt possible then izuwan cn tell mi be careful it jack in a box.tat 1 another toopid 1!!in the end turn out 2 be a LEVI watch.the thing i love abt it.it is black ND GOLD!!NICE...but the thing is i dun like ppl gettin mi exp things.i feel bad.if its ma parents its ok but when ppl get mi i feel bad.but anyway thks uncle.ur the best!!anyway waited 4 mimi,leslie,melvin 2 come.uncle so uncle help mi throw the trash.but he ask boss mi arnd then kept kpo-in when i sweptin floor.xtra!!haha...then heard juicy gossips fr mimi!!haha...gt bullied by the usual again..ass!!haha..yup then the movie was at 12.15.they la toopid wan 2 watch so late.so in the meantime they smoked nd we sat nd crapped fr weird words to strawberry to asses nd dunno wat else i am tryin 2 keep it PG!!haha...at the same time we were camwhor-ing.haha..then thr was high jumpin nd leslie carried mi.omg.realli siao ppl. the security guard oso crapped a lit wif us.yup...then we were almost late 4 the movie.then toopid izuwan trick mi wif the toopid straw thing.nonsense...rite i havent said wat movie we watched f&f4.dun anyhow tink ah.its fast nd furious 4.gd movie la.so far i love all of them.ok 3 1 abit nt tat nice but the rest awesome nd i tink paul walker gettin old.haha...then during the movie jes called mi nd we were like gal talkin la.then she ask mi whr am i.i said i at vivo watchin movie then she was llike dun lie.i was like realli then she said toopid y nvr say earlier ok enjoy the movie i talk 2 u ltr.rite haha..aft tat went 2 slack again tis time at macs.yup...it was realli fun. i realli enjoyed maself.but at macs i dunno i gt a lit stress abt wat kiran msged mi during the movie.i was afraid 4 him.on top of tat the movie scared mi more wif all the races nd crashing.it was starting 2 scare mi.kiran was gna go racing in malaysia somemore wif his r6 even worst.i dun wna lose u.nd if i tell u dun go wld u listen.nd he tells mi dun worry i am nt 1 of those crazy riders.so i dun care...but others r...dun go pls...jus no matter wat rmb ur safety 1st k...love u!!he was gna leave at 6am 2 malaysia.god pls watch over him!!then aft awhile at marcs we all decided 2 part as it was kinda late alr 3 plus..took cab home.still cnt stop myself fr thinking abt racing nd all.took the carpark way bak home.walked by kiran's bike,admirin it at the same time feelin worried.gt hme every1 was aslp so i quietly gt change wash up nd goin 2 bed.yup...realli tired!!i need slp!!!

fighting against it

2009-04-09T11:38:00.000-07:00

living in a world full of lies.

everyone arnd u always puts on some kind of act

wats so wrong wif jus being who u r??

or is it jus easier jus being some1 else.

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tis world is nt as simple as it looks,

i wld noe,

i realli wish i cld knock ma head,

knock out all ma past

4get eveything i ever gone through

remove all the painful memories,

it hurts 2 hav 2 rmb all of it.

if i cld wish 4 smth,

it wld be 2 remove all of it.

start off new like a new born baby.

nd i oso realli wish 2 hav sukhwant bak

i miss him.

he feels like a stranger 2 mi.

i jus realli wish god wld nt tortune mi like tis.hasnt it been enuf??

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lad 2 hav all of u by ma side

cos i noe if i ever need some1

u all will always be thr,

someone 2 rely on.

someone 2 look over mi.

thank u nd

love u forever.

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You shouldnt live a lie,

with someone,

when deep inside you know he aint the one

one that cn never be wif you.

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feeling scare,

and feel that you may nvr love again

jus noe tat thr is someone thr for u

someone tat will c

tat u r worth

an undiscovered treasure on tis earth

nd tat u r wont much more.

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baby,understand mi

wat ma heart wants nd feel

awesome-ness

2009-04-09T00:26:00.000-07:00

As usual i slept late last nite abt 3 plus...then tis morning suppose 2 get up at 10 but instead only gt up at like 10.30 plus.late.then on top of tat some renovation thingy was going on.so annoying...then quickly gt rdy cos i tot i was late apparently some1 havent even left their hse.somemore cn msg mi wake up alr nt,he on the way alr when he wa still in bed...*beep*hole..nonssesne..in the end i reached earlier.then was waiting 4 him went lorraine came up nd said hi 2 mi.at 1st i dint noe who she was then finally i rmbed.haha....she was goin batam wif her bf nd another of her couple fren 4 hols.so cool!!i wan oso.talk her her while waitin 4 uncle.then finally he came.uhhuh...make mi wait.shld be guy wait 4 gals,nt gals wait 4 guys.ten we 1st walk arnd aimlessly.then decided go eat at mac.so nice uncle treat.then met lorraine again.haha....then thr was tis family tat kept staring at mi...i hav no idea y.dun ask.haha...then we sat at mac like damn long.jus talked..yup then continued walkin aimlessly arnd.saw the score 4 yst game chealse 3-1 liverpool.haha....then went 2 smokin area..he wanted 2 smoke then aft tat we jus continue sittin thr nd talked somemore.he kept draggin ma time 2 go work.haha.....then he influence mi 2 nt go 2 work.he brainwash mi..haha....so in the end i dint go work lo anyway was way 2 tired.seriously..then takin train time i met ji hae,valentina nd jewel teo.wow...all looked so mature alr,like so diff so nt used 2 it.haha...well still glad 2 c all of them.yup.uncle had 2 go tm1 gt work while i went down 2 mit jes,waited 4 her 2 come down then when she did.she said her bro was draggin her go drinkin cos he wan talk 2 her.cool nd on sia the bro.haha....so then instead hanged wif emma.followed her 2 mit some guy she has nvr seen be4.some guy called roy(indian-punjabi mix),jeetin fren.he overact alot nd exaggerate alot 2.haha....we were at 206 then the guy was like dun mind ah..then we were like dun mind wat smoke ah.then the guy was like dun mind i smoke weed,nt the normal.we were like stunned.like wth,isnt it like ban in spore wif the whole big offence nd all.then emma was like i always wanted 2 try it which she did...omg scary sia.then they were like high but ok la nt 2 bad.i wanted 2 try 2 but no tat wld be like way over ma limits.siao....gd gal belinda nvr try...*pat pat*haha....then we shifted 2 209.then started playing tati.yup then we worked at the shipping somewhr.so he was like u wan get special yearly contacts cn get it fr him at like 68 buckz.his fren brings it fr australia.he showed us his which was so cool.omg...it was a spade contacts.cool sia.its like white then in the middle gt 1 spade.haha then he say when u wear it ur black pupil wld be cover so is like the whole eye wld be white then the spade in the middle jus imagine how awesome is tat...abit like ghost but still awesome-ness.then he say cn get all kinds of contacts gt pink ones oso....haha...i wan 2 try but like a bit wasteful.haha....c how.then he say if wan tattoo oso cn find him.but tat 1 emma gna help mi oso cos she say she noe ppl tat cn do.haha....wow..yup..the guy was scary nd i cld nt leave emma alone wif the guy cos like smth was wrong.so waited til like he left then i left which was like 9 plus.so tired sia.then guy veri nonsense la,specially the way he smoke the weed nd go high so freaky sia.then he kept saying the way i look nd act i dun look like i am 18.haha....then they kept askin y i always smiling smiling.haha wat u wan mi 2 say la...haha....thr is no answer 2 tat qn.then emma pro i dunno wat 2 say.say 4 her hope everything will be alrite.dun worry k gal.i felt bad 4 skippin work tday but nt bad i had a awesome day tday...haha..yup then dint noe whether wna go club a nt.davin,kevin nd harry all ask mi if going nt.but no la dun wan...no age limit le sure kids kids all go 1.like toopid only.anyway no la 2 tired..BEAUTY SLEEP...haha..yup c mi so gd gal...so proud of maself.haha...i love mi!!!:).aiyo worried 4 kiran.its happenin all over again.yup tats all 4 tday..adidoz:p

bordemmm....

2009-04-08T23:57:00.000-07:00

hmmm...weelll tday nt much la....quite boring.all i cn say is woke up quite late.then was veri lazy.suppose 2 meet jes but dint.too lazy.glued 2 the sofa.so freaky shagged.then went 2 work,felt so dead.siti was still sick,victoria worked mid nd aishah was thr 2 so was shawn.ltr on ma 1 dollar came down oso,so did kelvin nd his bros.nonsense.alll 1 by 1 ah!!it was a kinda quiet day.then at the end of the day practice abit of pool.tryin 2 improve but i so need help.haha.anyhow 1 le i!!haha....then aft tat took cab bak wif siti.yup tats all nth much kinda borin.yup tats it...

2009-04-07T00:34:00.000-07:00

hahaha....i slept early last nite hoping 2 be able 2 wake up early tday but unfortuately i dint.haha...woke up jus went eileen came.ha i made her wait outside 4 awhile,in the meantime i quickly wash up.then went we were abt 2 leave 2 go kk.it started 2 rain so heavily tat we cld nt even c the buildings.haha so we jus stayed on.eileen helped mmi do ma blog.love her so much.haha...oso wee were will girl talkin nd all.haha....love tues.then suppose 2 go np 2 eat at waffletown nd 2 c glenn but in the end dint cos of the rain.instead we met amelia nd olivia nd derek at kap.wow its been long since i last went thr.haha....kinda miss studying thr.saw poh kim.haha....then brought ma sushei.haha...i miss sushei-ing.then ate at kap then met kelly thr 2.then stayed thr til like 4 plus then left 2 eileen hse.on the way thr saw so many of her neighbour.when we gt 2 her hse,1st thing both went online.then we started msn-ing each other when we were like nxt 2 each other.haha...then we had our movie marathon.1st we watched the unborn.it was only a lit scary nd a lit yuck.the person head turned like 360 degrees it was grossy!!then we watched confession of a shopaholic.i kinda like tat movie.its nice in a way.then...jus sat watch tv nd surf the net nd did ma blog somemore.then we were crappin wif allan online,trying 2 confused him.it was damn funny.we were acting like siao ppl.haha....then like 9 plus we decided 2 go down 4 dinner behind eileen hse thr.i chose a gr8 place(i had gd view of the tv,the ch 8 chinesee drama was going on)haha....we ate nd watched the movie til like 10 when it ends.then headed home.haha....then going off time.eileen say her dad will drop mi 2 the bus-stopp.but guess wat we were takin lorry.the last time i sat on a lorry was that time Big B's lorry when we went out 4 the family gathering.haah...tat was a realli gr8 day.then somemore her dad go veri fast so it was kinda scary.haha....in the end her dad send mi all the way home.it was a fun experience once again.haha..tis pics was taken on the way.haha..yup.

monday blues

2009-04-06T23:52:00.000-07:00

rite....k in the end tday we all dint mit.i left hse at like 4 cos papa was home nd he noes i start work at 3 so hav 2 keep up wif tat.so it was like damn early 2 go work so i decided 2 tak the bus cos it wld tak a longer time but guess i was wrong.the 1st bus tat came which cld go vivo was 57 so i took it.then at bugis stop galant came up the bus,tried 2 hide his face but it made it was obvious.haha...toopid.yay at least i had company the whole way till vivo plus at the same time i reached vivo in 20 mins.damn fast.tthen i sms uncle 2 c if he comin down which he said he wld aft work.the thing is he came but nt fr work but fr home wif his kids nd family.he dint go work took offf.aiyo i tell u he ah....then i was playing wif him say dun wan 2 talk 2 him.haha....then ltr on wc came down 2 wif xuewen nd his frenz.haha..yup.haha...then wc stole a pack of ciggs.haha...no la!some guy left his ciggs thr then wc pick it up.then came nd ask mi did azri go near the pool table.then i was like yea.then he still cn yea he drop 1.then i had 2 tell him tat some guy lost 1 nd he came bak 2 ask for it but tld him we dun hav.haha....then ltr on uncle came bak wif his family 2 play nd all.haha...his kids r so cute.then cos we were all chopping uncle then we passed the chop 2 the kids nd tld them 2 chop their dad nd they did.it was so cute.they r so cute.haha...then wc was like playing wif all ma frenz online ascting as mi!!haha...then he stayed til closing.then at the end mi nd himplayed max tune whr i beat him 2.i was 1st.yAY 2 mi boo 2 wc.haha...i guess i always win him.haha...i won him in tekken 6 too,wif a kangaroo.haha..damn i am gd.haha...then came home.on the way bak.mi,siti nd wc talk talk.haha....then when i gt home i watched ma the suite life of zack nd cody,cory in the house nd tat's so raven.then aft tat watched ma recorded 9 o'clock drama the ping pong 1!!haha...wc was like u watching the 9o'clock drama at 1 am.haha....yup so going 2 go bak 2 watchin tv.cya bb..haha:)

its coming 2 a end.

2009-04-06T14:20:00.000-07:00

wah damn tired la tday.slept only at 5.then cant get up.am too tired.in the end woke up at 1pm.haha...i noe i noe tat is realli late 4 a gal.ha then gt up eileen say wna go island creamery so ok lo afteralll so long nvr go thr alr.suppose 2 be mimi,eileen nd i but in the end i think it will be only eileen nd mi.nd i tink we going vivo ben n jerry instead cos it was raining.yup....still feelin veri tired.ohoh i had a bad dream it was long so i am nt gna write it all down.

ma last day of work is 10th of april if nth changes la.yay get 2 work on gd fri double pay be4 i leave.yay then aft tat i cn go out wif whoever i owe.which i think is quite alot nd jus enjoy be4 school start.i am nt realli cite 4 school 2 start.yup..oh then jaroop msg mi if i was free on fri or sat.then say nt sure.they wna go double O.so in other words if i hav nth on i wld be going...haha...fun fun.ok gtg nw gt work nd mit eileen.ohoh nd uncle nd wc coming down 2.yup!!:)

sexy sunday singtel

2009-04-05T00:16:00.000-07:00

welll tday actualli wanted 2 wake up early nd go down 2 vivo 2 visit uncle workin on his last thr.yup set ma alarm damn at 10,30 but i slept only at 4 plus,cos i was waiting 4 kiran 2 come home, but i was realli tired so i kept snoozing in the end i woke up at 11.55.haha....gt up quickly,get ready eat all then set out 2 work.it was raining damn heavily then mustafa was flooded....eeeww thk gd i wore slippers..haha nd no 1 said anything gr8..haha...i like.hardeep moved 2 he was replacing kavin.ha.so he dropped fardeeana nd mi at kinta.convience wat same place 2 hav guys who hav rides.haha...free rides...then kinta was like big,the tent was huge compared 2 the old 1.haha then tis wk gt wat wat noonsense all.gt the big lucky draw tv,hair cut,makeover then picture takin 4 the dunno wat contest.so toopid.then the the make up was like might as well dun make up cos no diff haha...then the hair styling the lady in black kept doing flat hair so funny.they all looked like toots.ha!!wow thr were so many ppl.seriously..at 1st thr were so many of us at kinta.then sam was like i wna do pd i wan 2 do pd haha then marliyn was tinking +ve sayin he was.ask him quickly go sit 1st.haha...then sam was like marliyn stop lying 2 urself.it was damn funny.haha...then we all gt settled down.then hardeep like so slack la.nth 2 do.haha ltr he ended up helpin marliyn wif redeemption.yup...suresh all were damn busy.then heard joseph ... ... aaaahhhh so sad i no more ma china man.c another 1 leave.then aft awhile some1 came nd ask fardeeana 2 go do shopfront at desker.then i ended up doin 2 laptops.so many damn banglahs all..irratating...haha...then jus shouted at them.haha...then hardeep look at mi nd say wah u power ah..haha...then he started asking the banglah u gt aeroplane u noe aeroplance 2 catch ah.dun hav rite then wait...haha...damn funny sia..crazy..oh sam did the tv lucky draw he said veri boring.haha...kinta was so busy tat hardeep had 2 tak like stake of cards 2 mustafa 2 do then bring them bak ltr.then aft awhile neson came nd tak mi away 2.say mustafa need some1 2 cover cos they send a guy 2 cover shopfront 4 dinner.then went in his van which was scary then he tld mi all wat he almost gt into accident all.haha...1 thing abt mustafa is tat the ppl thr veri nice but veri busy oso,specially 4 those who do the 1st few pds.haha....then when i gt thr i did the like 4th pd quite busy then the guy simon so cute so small size like mi go find tissue then clean ma chair 4 mi then ask mi sit,say y i like standin.haha...then tis other guy daniel.noise sia..haha...shout nd shout.funny sia he.talk nonsense 1.but simon veri cute so sweet,nice fella.then when uncle came bak i went 2 the end.wow tat was the slacks la.jus sit thr here nd thr then gt card 2 register.otherwise jus sit thr nd talk or look arnd or enjoy the music.haha then jame's son shamin nd the daniel kept talkin 2 mi.then kiran dint bring mi ma dinner tday.haha...whr's the bro love haha tat wld be wat suresh wld say...haha...then daniel brought mi snickers.haha...then everytime i wld eat some1 wld come 2 mi.then daniel was so nice he was like leave them 2 mi u eat.he ask mi 2 eat nd share wif him his food cos nt like he gt aids tat wat he say but no la dun wan la.then when i wanted 2 go 7-11 buy drink both of them followed mi.aiyo they dint let mi go anywhr maself.haha...both daring fighters.haha..aiyo.gd thing abt mustafa it closes veri early but then must wait 4 every1 2 come bak.then jus helped 2 packed up as much as i cn cos i oso nt sure wat 2 do only did thr once.yup..then aft jus stood arnd then looked at the mustafa lucky draaw guy funny la he whole day say the same thing.i tink i cn memorize it alr "m&m is money & money.u put in ur mouth it will melt.its 45g nt 45 pounds"haha...wow i cn.haha....then fr thr i started talkin 2 simon nd brian.haahaa.so cute...i tink i gt smth wif shy guys.haha...then the guy tat went 2 over 4 shop front(lets call him zu) came bak then i dint realise he was talkin abt mi 2 simon.then i was hugging the pole nd staring into space then the cleaner in-charge came nd ask mi y hug the pole y dun hug zu instead in chinese then i replied in chinese.then he say huggin the pole will get electric shock if gt lighting but hug him wont hav,so rather hug him.then i jus laugh.i tink i was blushing alr la.ha....then simon was like eh u cn speak chinese then i was like yea.then he ask u understand la.yea lo of cos la.then zu was like c i tld u she cn speak chinese then ask ma bro oso cn rite.then i was like yea but mine betta than his which is truth..hahaha..then these 2 chinese gals tot i was mix.they say i dun look indian i look mix.haha then i was like no la.pure haha..they say cos i look veri unique,very pwetty..so cool.haha..thks gal!!yup....then aft awhile saw sight of sam nd marliyn nd george.haha...yay kinta is bak.haha...i was smiling alr,actualli at marliyn but sam smiled bak.haha...its gd cos i am hearing him talk more nd more.nd best of all smiling.haha nd jokin.so adorablee...i gna melt liao...then waitin 4 pay time we all stood arnd nd talked nd all..haha....it was funny.then chat wif suresh all,he la always like 2 bully mi.then say i cannot laugh at him but he cn at mi.haha....oh i like tday of all sundays.haha...it was fun tday.then kiran dropped mi bak nd he went bak 2 mustafa then camp.

oh tday was uncle's last day at vivo but i cld nt go bak.heard he gt flour-ed.haha..sukarti,siti nd sha poured flour on him.haha...gdgd...thks guys!!job well job.gt wc nd mimi 2 help cheer uncle nd keep him happy through out the whole day.haha i figured he will need nd wan it.uncle dun feel lousy k.we all will always be here.nd we wont drift apart k.we will mit up nd all k.dun worry.we will always be in touch.cheer up k.:)

being without u

2009-04-04T00:59:00.000-07:00

heyhey wassup??welll i dun realli noe wat kind of day i had tday.hmm..welll woke up kinda late i guess at like 12 smth.am so used to gettin up so late nowdays.1st of all is cos i am always working nite or morning wif uncle so cn wake up a bit ltr.then watching tv,slack dint hav much 2 do.then wanted 2 go temple but papa they all left without even askin mi 2 go,they jus ignored mi...so sad.So then jus continued watching tv,at the same time i painted ma nails blue.it looks realli nice nd cool.i kinda love it.haha...i gt 2 work on time.still nt feelin well still.at 1st it was jus fever but then i had headache nd sore throat.but the stubborn thing is i dun like take medicine.haha...then on the way to work,i dunno i had tis weird feeling.a very lousy feeling.
When i gt 2 work i realise tat some1 alr punched ma card 4 mi,it was uncle.wc was thr 2 when i gt thr.dint realli feel like talkin 2 any1.i jus realli had no mood.then i tot when eileen nd mimi come down i wld feel betta but in the end all bailed out.so i kinda feel like i was left out.somehow i had no mood to bother abt any1 but i knew in ma heart tat i cannot be like tat cos it was the last day mi nd uncle were gna work tgt nd i dun wan him 2 rmb it like tat.i jus cld nt tak it,i needed 2 let it out,i needed 2 cry damn badly cos tears kept on welling up in ma eyes.i went 2 the toilet i cry ma heart out then put on a smile went bak out nd help 2 bring joy 2 uncle last day wif mi.i realli hope he enjoyed it.realli sorry i was moody nd all be4,realli dint wan u 2 leave.
this is wat i hate,realli hate alot.tat is y i dun wan 2 get 2 close 2 anyone.am afraid,afraid tat,tat person wld eventually leave mi one day.nd it realli hurts when tat person leaves.experienced it time nd time again.everytime i promise i wld nvr get close 2 someome,however it always fail.cos something always tell mi 2 trust tat they wld nt leave but they r all lies.somehow they always leave or change.so uncle when u say i dun understand i do i realli do but i dunno how 2 comfort u cos actualli its something u hav 2 deal wif it.i noe it will be hard but u cn do it and rmb i am a friend tat wld nvr be like tat.i will always be here,anytime.i dunno wat 2 do or say cos when it happen 2 mi no 1 realli comfort mi or actualli manage 2.so yea...sorry.
anyway later on izuwan dropped by 2.actualli the plan tday was tat we tell izuwan tat we were gna do something 2 uncle pour like flour,egg,coke on him cos his last day then tell uncle its izuwan bdae so gna do smth 2 him nd pour stuff on him...haha it wld be damn funny cos they wld pour stuff on each other.haha then we all will attack both of them.haha...yup..but unfortuately it dint happen...like fine whateva.so be it..anyway it was fun 2 hav his company arnd.then finally kelvin came bak again. wif all his lit bro guys.he cut his hair all,dye his hair bak.haha....then at arnd 10 plus wc came bak.then wateva wc did 2 mi i did 2 either uncle or izuwan it was funny.then we all were like talkin crap la.haha...nonsense ppl..then mi nd uncle kept sayin wc nd izuwan was gay.wc was the guy nd izuwan the gal..haha...it was funny.we were all nonsense-ing la.haha....crazy ppl realli i tell u....love u guys all....great 2 hav noe u all!!!:) haha...ohoh then some security guard asked mi 2 follow him cos 1 of our basketball was at level 2 the cinema thr.haha wonder how it gt thr.... then be4 going home all 3 of them played MTDX.as usual uncle won both the rounds then izuwan kept disturbing them..haha...then going home time.we had 2 tak the lift down cos it was 12 plus.then i pressed B2.haha...i tot takin train going home i 4gt its a diff lift.in the end we came out 2 the carpark then all paiseh to go bak in.then they were like yeayea belinda we own a car.then all blame me 4 pressing wrongly...eh no 1 c oso le...toopid.then took the nxt lift bak up 2 level 1.papa was alr thr waiting 4 mi.then gt home changed eat then on the com while i watched tokyo juliet..haha...so loving the story...nice nice nt bad but wu zun look aabit weird.haha kk tired la.then still gt work tmr...nitez!!

as time go by

2009-04-03T23:51:00.000-07:00

ok last nite slpt considered slpt quite early 2 plus...was sick la then tis morning was damn tired cld nt wake up still nt feeling well...bluff uncle say i very sick cannot come down then he was like if u realli sick u cn dun come wah...so nice sia.if i ha had i wldnt hav gone 2 work.haha...then gt 2 vivo had a craving 4 chocolate donuts but bread talk dint hav.so went 2 giant 2 try ma luck nd they had it.so glad.haha then brought old chang kee 2.haha....then gt 2 work like at 10.45 haha...amazing gunadi alr thr so early...wow...haha...so tired then at the same time i had headacde nd stomach cramp.suxz sia..irratating....then jus hang arnd,read newspaper nd oso msgin.amazing every1 was early tday.its gna snow in spore..haha...sha was suppose 2 come in at 1 but she was late.then she finally came at abt 1.45 like tat followed by eileen.then wanted 2 leave them alone nd jus walk arnd but we end up lookin at phones.thr was a new sony e phone tat was damn nice i regret gettin ma phone..ahahaha...shit...toopid.i wan tat.damnit!!aiyo...then mimi called said she reach alr,at the arcade,so we headed bak.aft awhile derek arrived 2.they played DDR nd para para while i waited til sukarti came nd gt changed then we left.uncle came along 2.then met dian 2.he ask smoke smoke smoke always c him smokin.we went pizza hut-ing.haha yesss.....yay aft so long finally.....we were actualli veri quiet then slowwly slowwly it gt veri noisy.we took realli long nd guess wat i wasnt the last tday,ok wasnt the 1st oso.but it will do 4 nw.haha....hey it nt bad k 4 mi.then was heading bak up 2 play pool when we were stopped by a fashion show held/organise by FOX.it was realli nice nd cool.the guys r whoa nd the gals were hot.man i so wish i cld be like tat.saw act cute nd the num gang.haha....dian dian nd derek played on a table nd eileen nd mimi played on another.then ltr thr was a game sha vs uncle..oooo....battle of the sexes.haha......apparently sha won.she is gd!!haha...mimi seemed veri lucky tday.haha then we headed out 2 the bak cos dian wanted 2 smoke then at the same time we needed 2 plan 4 tmr.hAHA yup...the workers were disturbin then dian wwas communicating wif pet safari cat.haha...he crazy.then he oso bully mi nd i jack him bak.ohoh....tday at pizza-hut oso every1 jack mi lo.mean.....coming bak sharon came 2 jus then.yup soon aft mimi,eileen nd dian dian had 2 leave.then i left 2 awhile aft,went 2 the edge,sat thr nd talked wif sharon 4 awhile.then at like 7 like tat i left 4 home 2.came home no 1 home.on everything nd sit down haha...then when ma parent came home i gt scolded.haha.annoying.oh i gt ma laptop case 2.haha...i dunno papa brought 4 mi 1.so sweet...but i am like tat i use the lappie nd watch tv at the same time 1.haha..then sonu ask mi go chillies tonite,so late then ask..haha..anywway no mood thenn sick oso wat still.haha...he so cute...ma chacu,sweet fella.haha.....omg sam is so cute.glenn oso...i wan all....ooowww haha.i am gna melt.haha...i wan a hot bf.haha!!cchey..i shy alr...ok la going off alr la..tired!!need ma slp tmr gna be a fun fun day.haha muahaha..

thinking

2009-04-03T11:47:00.000-07:00

Creating a distraction for other is easy

but creating a distraction for oneself is hard.

somehow the thing you try so hard to forget,

eventually comes back to you one way or another.

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i feel like i am in a maze,

struck in the middle,with no help or sign

i look left nd right it looks the same which way do i go,

which pave do i take,is it the correct one

will i ever make it out or will i jus be struck here forever.

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Acting.Masked.

no one is able to c or understand the one behind all the masks

cause at everypoint thr wld be one.

no matter wat.

she wears one cause thr is alot hidden

fear nd scars tat cn nvr be removed.

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i promise you,

promise that i will not go after anything that is out of ma lead,

nd tat i wld keep maself within my limits.

i would listen to you.

listen when you tld mi to move on.

nd tat u r nt gd for me.

i will try

try to enjoy wat life brings mi

nd nt 2 hang on to you.

all i need is time.

time 2 break away.

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are you sure tis is who u are??

cos the more i look at you it shows me a carbon copy of me

but nt a perfect one too

u dint used 2 be like tat?

wat made you become like this??

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speak your mind

say wat you wna say

nvr leave ppl guessin

cos ppl may nt always tink of the rite things

we r humans nt pshcy or mind reader.

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who do u tink u r??

do u tink wat u r doing or havin been doing is rite??

reflect on urself nd wat has been going on

dun u find smth wrong,dun u tink u r nt behavin rite

nd do u realli wan nd need some1 to tell u for u 2 realise

nd oso if u r nt tired i am.

have some fashion sense!!guys hav feelin 2!!

Gosh!!who do u tink u r??

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tired.shagged.exhausted.

fr nw on i am nt gna hang on 2 things.

nd at gna go aft things tat i cn nvr hav

but well wonderful memories will always stay wif mi forever,

nd it will always be wif mi

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i jus wan to thank every1 who has been wif mi.

any nd everytime

through thick nd thin,when i was high or crazy or emo-ish

jus realli glad u were thr

i thank god 4 such wonderful ppl nd tat u guys will always be thr

nd i wld be here 4 u too.

I LOVE YOU ALL!!:)

exhausted!!shagged

2009-04-02T22:05:00.000-07:00

hmmm tday i worked morning wif sukarti...slept late but woke up realli early.i reached work like at 9.04.considered quite early alr le.haha...then wiped all the glass doors,the whole counter nd all the wining machines.so tired.but it was so boring tat i jus kept on wiping even though i was realli tired i dunno y!!then stood at counter msg.then sukarti brought pau back 4 mi but nt realli hungry.haha...i jus felt realli exhausted.read the newspaper alost felt aslp.then jus hang arnd then sister came...haha...then like sukarti was saying her.haha damn mean la she..haha then talked 2 her.then uncle came at like 2 smth.come only disturb mi.haha....gna miss it!!then i actualli at 3 cn go bak but uncle dun let mi.hide ma bag nd ma wallet all..nonsense noe he..ha...then i wanted 2 win the prize but some ass go nd win la.so angry,annoyed i wan ma ds.then uncle keep nt lettin mi go.dun wan mi 2 leave him nd sha alone.haha....in the end he only let mi leave at like 7 plus haha...then i came home.mummy realise nd i was havin fever.ask mi tak medicine go nd slp but i dint wan.dun wan.nt gna happen.haha...suppose 2 slp early cos sick but in the end i only slpt ah 2 plus-3.haha was watching confession of a shopaholic.ok movie la.haha kk tired gna slp alr...shag...haha:)nitey nite!!

crazy crazy crazy day!!!

2009-04-01T23:45:00.000-07:00

HAHA HAPPY APRIL FOOL DAY!!!
OMG tday was a hectic day...in the wee hours of the nite,ppl called mi 2 prank mi.but jus be4 mimi msged mi nd wished mi happy april fool day.so i alr knew wat was coming alr..hahah...so no use.i realise nobody fooled mi.haha...kelvin tried on mi but failed terribly then they ask mi prank davin but as usual it failed 2.haha...lousy sia!!!they realli nonsense nd funny.then they all asked mi 2 prank on some guy called hiesh...haha...tat poor fella realli fell 4 it la...i heard he waited 4 ma call. tld them alr he tink its realli but it was realli fun i realli wanted 2 laugh.u guys r a crazy bunch.then eileen pranked leslie nd wc.haha...i heard at 1st leslie dint believe then wc helped 1.haha pranked quite a no. of ppl la.so fun so fun...talked 2 mimi nd eileen til like 4 plus in the morning then went 2 slp was so tired.was suppose 2 mit eileen nd mimi at kap 1 2 prank more ppl but was jus 2 tired.then was early 2 go 2 work so i took the bus down.haha still was early.so i did a lit shopping nd then gt maself a treaat ICE CREAM nd mars bar.then at the same time was prankin uncle.haha....kinda fail dunno nt sure haha....when i gt 2 work dear leslie was thr nd wc oso.haha....which i tink is a bad thing...okok was so glad u guys came u r more then welcome 2 come anytime.haha.....they bully mi the whole day.kept pinching ma cheeks,pullin ma rubber band,then uncle keep stepping on ma foot nd choppin me wif vivo timezone chop.the best nd ultimate 1 LESLIE kept carrying mi....which was really scary.haha but cool.haha....yea but... ...nd he dint jus carry mi once.haha....then they realli bully la...then leslie ate ma mars bar bully.but they were realli nice.it was realli fun.once skool start i am gna miss all u guys.then mi nd leslie went 2 buy food then leslie kept tellin the chicken rice lady tat i eat alot.i need 4 packets.then the lady say dun scold or say mi ltr i angry haha....then he go tell the lady i wont cos i his gf.siao la he....pls ah!!heehee....then we pranked mimi while eatin...ohoh nd sharon 2.haha.....i love tday!!it was great.i feel great..realli enjoyed the day i wan everyday 2 be like tat.thks guys,u're the best!!

Girls dun necessary need guys 2 enjoy!!

2009-03-31T12:29:00.000-07:00

heyhey....tday is tue 1 of the favourite days tat i love...whhheee...morning started off wif wakin up realli early nd gettin rdy 2 go kk.i was realli tired nd oso woke up a lit late but still be4 eileen come.then eileen said it was gna rain,it looked like it was so i carried the long,big umbrella but guess wat it dint rain.nonsense.we walked down 2 kk while chit chattin.when we gt thr checked in nd all went down 2 ward 31 but thr wasnt much 2 do it was really quiet.so we went bak my suppose 2 go ward 62 but some1 alr went so instead we gt posted to 56.thr was alr 1 lady thr but we help her.we went 2 bedsides 2 play.we play snakes nd ladders,aeroplane,hare nd tortise and starfish games.hahaha....i am so proud of maself i won the snakes nd ladder nd the aeroplane game haha...it was so fun tat i suggested 2 play it on fri...haha....wat i WON!!then we ended at like 12.then went bak 2 sign out almost 4gt umbrellaie again.haha...poor fella.then on the way goin 2 look 4 mummy ji,looked arnd at the hampers for kids.yup...chit chatted wif mummy 4 awhile.then wait 4 her 2 end counter then tld her go hav lunch then left,headed home.

then came home abt 12.45-1.on the way bak we made so much noise.haha....attract alot only la.haha..cchey....then came home gt eileen 2 do ma blog 4 mi.haha well i am bad at tis stuff so yea.thks babe 4 helping mi wif the blog.love ya:)then waited 4 mimi shee suppose 2 get here at like 12.30 in the end she only came at like 3 i think.in the meantime we were watching twilight nd music videos nd did girls stuff(shhssshhh,cant tell)heehee....then finally mimi came wif her cuz.we relaxed nd talk talk 4 awhile at ma hse be4 we set out.1st we went 2 D'creative cos mimi wanted 2 thread then went 2 get some old chang kee cos hungry sia mimi lo make us wait so long.then we gt 2 bugis gt tickets 4 the movie street fighter:the legeng of chun li.then we brought our favourite famous miilk tea then brought some snack snack.the movie was gd.haha cant believe edmund chen acted in it..haha....but seriously gd movie.yup but we watch movie hmmm....very noisy nd dirty nd weird.nt funny oso laugh...i still cn make fun of the lines in the movie.haha....funny!!aft the movie we quickly left cos it was quite embarrassing.haaha...then by the time movie ended kinda late alr.haha...wanted 2 go home but then decided tat we wna sit nd talk talk.so walked down bak 2 ma hse.nd had cai(tea)below ma hse at komala vilas.mimi nd gangai had ginger tea,mi on the other hand dun drink tea so i drank iced milo.which i realli love nd damn gd.yup then we all parted aft tat.realli fun day yet tiring.i love u all gals...

missing u

2009-03-30T00:03:00.000-07:00

monday blues....so damn tired but cldnt slp nd when i was abt 2 fall aslp sukhwant alarm rang.yup then morning wake up did the singpass thingyy.then papa gave mi money 4 the new phone yay yay so cool,went down 2 toa payoh 2 get ma phone.which i did nd it is the same as uncle's only it has gt red.yup.but i realise it has gt scratches nd it so doesnt look new which is y i gna change it.then i reached work late.took the bus 143 down 2 vivo.otw 2 vivo i received a text fr uncle tat he is sick nd wont be able 2 come 2 work.he has gt the flu bug.i dint realise thr was more bad news 2 come.UNCLE GNA GET TRANSFERRED 2 TM1.tat is so far away.i dun like i dun liike it at all.1 more once again leavvin.aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh..i hate it hate it hate it....i gna miss workin wif him nd all the crappin nd crazniess nd nonsense.i dun wan him 2 leavin then wats the point of stayin on??mimi's gone uncle gone so whatss left 4 mi!!toopid pussy.working wif sukarti a lit quiet but ok la but stilll.....aaaaaaaaaaaa i am beat i gna go off alr.feel stress nd upset nd aaaaahhhh tinkin abt alot...ciaoz

getting to enjoy sundays more nd more!!

2009-03-29T23:59:00.000-07:00

i tink i am startin 2 love workin on sundays at singtel.gettin more used 2 it,which mean i gettin more comfortable thr.haha...nd sam is still so cute...haha he has realli nice eyes nd a realli cool ora!yup...kiran dint work tday but still drove mi thr nd i hav no idea y he took burbon alone 2.but burbon so cute so all so mini ahaha....so bad make fun of him!!ha then suresh nd the 18o guys were like called spca ah abuse the dog lock him in the car at least must let him drive la.haha...siao ppl.was like damn slack.then finally talked 2 samm like her nd thr.haha then very chatty wif fardeeana nd suresh talk abt clubbin,ex,songs nd all.it was cool nd fun!!gt every1 facebook haha nd sam.haha ok yea i siao alr.but it is realli hard 2 c him laugh le always so like fiecre.but he look realli nice when he does smile.gt 2 noe him betta 2 or least more things abt him.haha...kkk enuf abt him.heehee...then it started raining...nd once again it was flooded nd anonyying.so wet nd sticky but gd cos we close shop nd jus sat nd chit chat aft awhile bored so plug in.ha...then suresh keep stealin ma ipod oso.then laterr on ma bro love came nd the food of the day was char guo teow.wah yay yumm yumm!!!then at the end thr were shortage nd we had 2 like stay on the clear it.funny cos we cover her cover thr,in the end it tally haha..like tat oso cn it was funny.then while we were doing it some china man came nd ask sam thing.
China man:what are we doing??
Sam:doing accounts
china man:before this.
sam:oh sell card.
china man:oh singtel card.then what is the free gift??
sam:energy drink no soft drink nd rice.u know?the one 2 cook food.
haha...i cld nt take it.the moment the guy walk away i bursted out laughin.funny funny...then marylin tld him i knew chinese.then he smile nd kinda laugh 2 when i explain 2 them wat he say.cute sia..haha.then took pay then kiran drop me bak..kiran ah cn u drive safely u make mi worry alot.speacially hearing u nearly bang somemore pls pls drive carefully,u noe sundays here r like tat.take caare of urself pls.i dun wan anything 2 happen 2 u.yup tats it i guess realli tired.nd body aching.

surrounded by amazing ppl which i will nvr 4get!!

2009-03-28T23:57:00.000-07:00

SATURDAY... ... suppose 2 be off but dun wan.wasted.i slept at 6 plus nd woke up 10 plus...i am lackin of slp....MY BEAUTY SLP!!haha....start work at 1 a lit late cos went down 2 ps 1st 2 get ma replacement sim then shopped a lit wif mummy..haha then went 2 work victoria was alone it seems uncle has been out 4 a long time nd jus gt back jus aft mi.well can understand cos izsuwan grandma jus passed away maybe he needs some1.i tot izuwan was like uncle's age or like 20 something dint noe he was our age.haha... ...later on leslie nd wc came down 2.it felt like thr were so manyy manyy ppl.gt party ah y nt comee down xtra only...nahh jus kiddin la u guys r more then welccome 2 vivo.then we left leslie nd vic 2 run the place while uncle nd mi went shoppin.he went 2 buy his pants fr topman.while he was trying i looked arnd c if thr is anything cn get 4 kiran but i realise the clothes all so gay so qua... ...haha then went arnd lookin at phone cos i LOST MA PHONE still angry!!!!saw davin...haha he oso came 2 get phone.... .... uncle say he wna get a phone 4 his wife.but thing was wateva phone i say nice he was like ok then i get tat phone.idiot noe....copyy cat!!or maybe i jus hav gt greatt taste haha cchey!!then in the end he gt the LG cookie.the phone i liked all realli ex.then i suppose 2 end at 7 but we all left all tgt at like 6.haha....alll of us went down 2 orchand.haha i drag all of them thr 4 dinner.cool rite but very noisy.then wc keep takin ma ipod.mean!!hahah....then when we gt 2 orchand mimi havent even reach la..haha...then hamidah nd ramalah keep askin uncle stuff.nd guess wat forte was thr 2...haha long time no c.aft awhile we all went down 4 dinner tat is when i realise thr was 10 of us...wow so big group sia.wait did i mention eileen came down 2 join us.yup she did..we went 2 BBQ chicken 4 dinner.ok thr was aishah,victoria,leslie,wc,ohoh thr was kenny 2,he came 2 collect his psp fr uncle,then thr was uncle,izuwan,mi,mimi,eileen.yup 10.the tz crew..the best in the world nd some say batam.hehe....love them all...will always rmb u guys..keep in touch k!!earth hour jus so happened 2 be then.lights were dim like so cosy.1 of the days tat i will always rmb.the food took realli long 2 come.i oredered creamy chicken which was realli creamy man nd i was 1 of the last 2 finish... ... nah lett mi rephrase i was the last 2 finish...NOONOO i dint even finish haha....wth!!randy came by the arccade 2 wif his fren.then blah blah mimi ciao fr work haha...reason the usual father call say smth happen at home or aunty in hospital...nd yea it was a success...ha!!then mi nd wc cab home 1st.then the taxi driver talk alot ah.haha...then i heard tat when i gt off the twxi driver asked if i was wc gf then say i pwetty.oh thks..haha..yup when i gt home no 1 said anything or ask y was i late...gdgd i liky it..the freedom feels gd.mi like!!!

i declare myself nt worthy of u. i wan to break away fr you.

2009-03-28T06:27:00.000-07:00

wow....had a great day.first i worked fr 5-11.toopid thing.Now work always start at 5.well cause according to alex tz is trying to cut cost cause the centers are nt hittin target... ...yea rite wat nonsense i soooooooo believe them.soooo yup work was fine...the usual crapping nd uncle's nonsense nd bullying mi...hahaha... ...then aft suppose 2 mit amelia 2 go gotham.jes was alr at clarke quay mrt waitin 4 mi.then i tot mimi wanted 2 go nd all so i went down 2 dhobby then she say she cldnt get away nd tat she was at starbucks.so i tot i cld go up nd help but when i gt 2 starbucks i didnt c her.stood thr like 4 15 mins searchin the place 4 her but cldnt find nd tried callin her but cldnt get.so like 4gt it.jes oso was callin nd callin alr.so i left.gt 2 cq.jes was thr then say someone wanted 2 talk 2 mi which was rohit(ohoh....by the way,he's vin bro) nonsense noe tat fella.haha....then quick change nd ciaoz.when we gt 2 gotham jus nice arti came which gladly talked jes into going in.haha......drinks were on her table 2.cool huh...haha....then at her table we met niki nd mohammad(niki's fren)... ...yup.took a drink then hit the dance floor.gt tired after awhile nd on the way bak 2 the table met tat monster nd bal.still cn ask mi how come u her...duh i alr said i was coming like realli long ago.dumb... ...haha!!totally ignored him.mingled nd flirt wif preetpal tat group.haha....jeevan is so cute but guess wat he is nt into punjabi gal.wth....who say i was haha.....cchey!!!but he cute sia but they all like high nd crazy haha....charan is a haha nvm.raghav is actualli nt bad u noe.haha.....preetpal was like 4 raghav i run like a crazy gal so toopid..haha
i kept walking up nd down preetpall's table nd ours.haha....i jus dint wan 2 stick 2 tat monster.i dun wan 2 torture myself anymore knowing nth is gna come out of it.yup...dun wna lie 2 maself.SO LIKE BEL BEL MOVE ON MAN!!haha....then the shiitty thing is tat i lost ma phone.i loved tat phone le.curse the bloody basket who took my phone,you are gonna die die i tell you...haha....sound so cruel sia but i dun care.ass-the-hole!!hehe....aft awhile i guess he wasnt bothered 2 oso ba.yup...asss......jes was high i had 2 put her out alr like time 2 go....c tis has how it has always been...she high nd mi lookin aft her.yup...was takin her home ashwin was so sweet he helped such a adorable fella nd cute nt 2 mention.hahaha....took her home then i went home.yup reached home abt 5 plus thank god everyone sleep alr.haha pheww.....whee....great day but angry cos i lost ma phone tgt wif all ma contacts nd msgin nd pics nd songs nd blahablahblah.....aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2009-03-08T01:26:00.000-08:00

hmmm....every1 suppose 2 mit up all tgt tday but in the end only mel,mimi nd mi met..as usual all late then we ate at marhe which i realise change alot.or maybe its has jus been a realli long time since we last ate thr...1 of the chef thr was like the gal wif the green neon nail polish it nice,very striking...haha..welll it cool nd nice.nd it seems like evry1 like it 2 well its unusual la tats y.then we walked arnd 4 awhile then i had 2 go 2 work.which leslie nd wc were alr at.its was so crowded thr were so many ppl.yup cool...we were foolin arnd nd all..then we went 2 get movie tickets nd shop shop..haha yup while i was working cool ah tats y i love ma job..haha....then every1 slowly slowly left nd it was jus mi nd uncle left.i had 2 pls uncle as much as i cld jus so i cld go off early cos mi nd sunny were gna catch a movie wif sunny,push which was at 11.55 nd i actually end work at 12.30 haha.....nice ah.but ok la uncle wasnt alone cos his fren came down then i heard ltr on leslie came bak down oso.leslie jealous cos he was like go movie nvr call him then i go wif some guy.haha.......aawww it ok u will always be ma dear...haha.......then during the movie sunny kept rushing cos he dint wan 2 be late 4 clubbin.tis is the 1st time i hear u cn be late 4 clubbin...haha aparently he suppose 2 mit them at 1.30.he asked mi 2 go but no la dun wan.its ok if its like sonu nd all but wif them no..eeeeeeee...no!!siao dun wan...so i tld him i wld go home as i am nt well 2.i was squeesing the whole day like a crazy women uncle even said i looked like chuckles...i even took 2 panadol.yup tired so gna slp ta...

2009-03-07T01:13:00.000-08:00

hmmm....rite tday i suppose 2 work 12-8 but i switched wif her instead i did nite wif ayu nd uncle.then shasha who suppose 2 work til 8 went shopping wif sukarti nd siti...uncle was emo-ish la tday or at least he was actin.he say sukarti they all spoil his mood 2 come 2 work so he wna show them attitude which kinda scared mi cos i realli tot smth happen nd he upset or smth.so i was 'angry' wif him which cld nt make it cos he kept disturbing mi nd i am very easy 2 make happy.haha..like a kid u noe...haha....yup aft tat wc nd leslie came down 2 find us..they nonssense ppl haha...crazy crappy ppl...stayed til like 10 plus 11 then left.while we continue playing games til like 11.30 like tat,then we hurried nxt door 4 our movie at 11.40 cos they wanted 2 get some tibits be4 the movie,the cool thing was tat the movie was in 3d form...yay...was so cool!!uncle his wife,naz nd his gf sat infront while we(sukarti,shasha,siti,ayu nd mi)sat above them..the movie was very gory...so gross nd freaky...was a bit scare.shasha nd ayu made the most noise.1 laughing nd talkin the other eat very loudly...haha......aft tat took cab home still a lit freaked out by the movie.shared cab wif sha.yup gt home but cld nt realli slp so jus decided 2 watch tv till i was realli tired then went 2 slp.

2009-02-28T00:51:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 MI!!!whee....yay wth....every1 is up but guess wat no 1 wish mi yet....well its ok thr r alot of ppl wishing mi...haha!!yay....ok woke up in the morning wif mummy alr shouting at mi.preetipal toopid enagement.hmmm....must look pwetty pwetty tday cos its ma bdae haha......kk so the 1st person 2 wish mi was mashi then followed by mummy nd kiran...slow but well they still did.saw sunnyboy he look so causaual nd he still rmb mi..gdgd..nth much le tday.then was struck at temple 4 quite a while had dunno dunno wat 2 clear all.yup then came home rest 4 like an hour or so then had 2 leave alr.had 2 go uncle dalip hse 1st 2 get some stuff.which turned out 2 mi alot.haha...then dropped by amelia hse 2 get the lenga set nd stuff gt 2 the place gt rdy nd yup.i looked fab.mummy was like ltr she angry i look more grand then her.haha....so its ma bdae i deserve 2 look pwetty.haha...felt so happy ppl kept saying i look beautiful.haha....4 in 1 came over all the way jus 2 tell mummy i look realli nice nd "nizen na lik ja"(may no evil eye fall on mi)haha....so sweet fella will always love him.everything was great, crapped wif kiran.then saw kaka then saw sunny came in 2 was so happy.haha...then i saw rabbit 2.dint noe he jurong boys.ricky cld nt come down.but thr was alvin sidhu 2.talked 2 all of them nd they wished mi 2.they almost wanted 2 make a annoncement 2 the whole place tat its ma bdae cos they noe the dj but noooooo siao ah.......all wished expect 1 sunny...idiot..haha.....then kiran nd mummy kept pulling mi away say dun talk 2 guy ppl will talk,tld mi 2 behave tats when i argued bak tat its ma bdae.which in the end i gt scolded 4.then i started sulking haha........they all hanged arnd.dint noe they all were jurong boyz.haha.......i gt chased away fr the table.ass couple so wat sian.....toopid guy he has his own table but no fisher had 2 come sit on ours.then so damn rude even 2 his parents.on the day he shld respect nd talk blessing fr his parents instead he scolds them...wateva..none of ma business so who cares nt ma pro....haha nd guess wat they said i was uhmmmm.........hot!!haha..........i was so happy haha......over the moon!!ok la gna slp alr nitez

2009-02-23T09:48:00.000-08:00

ok havent blog in a long long time.haha....well u c i am a busy person.well it seems like it la.haha...tday was a realli nice day...timezone ppl celebrated ma bdae tday.nd it was realli disgustin i realli mean it...at 1st every1 was creepy nd all....amelia suppose 2 work but suddenly turn up at work tday wif eileen then leslie nd wc came 2,followed by derek nd sharon.haha all were actin so weird...haha creepy then i gt bdae present fr mimi nd ah ong.then they brought mi out walk walk all so i knew they were up 2 smth alr i jus went wif it,its ma bdae so wth.haha....then was at the pet safari thr then suddenly i stopped.i saw ppl running out fr the corner.the only thing i rmbed was some1 holding whipped cream in their hand then everything else was a blank evrything else came onto mi,dunno wat dunno who.then i felt some1 knock egg onto ma head but the dint crack open haha.....it was toopid uncle.haha finally he used his hands.haha...then aft tat every1 scattered.but i was only aft uncle cos he is the main mastermind.haha...chased him 2 gv all arnd,i even went into the guys toilet we were playing arnd in thr when sukarti nd shasha nd siti poured drinks onto mi aft which all ran away...it was realli funny nd crazy.haha......aft all i had 2 clean up.i was so disgustin.i had flour,eggs,drinks nd whipped cream all on mi it was realli realli disgusting..haha but fun. then thr was cake cutting nd the usual smashing of cake i tink tat will nvr get old.haha....tis time all kehna.it was havoc...haha...

i jus wna thank every1 4 helping mi make tis day so memorable 4 mi.i will always rmb it.thks guys lov u all.u guys r the best.always be sexy betchs.

2009-02-22T09:25:00.000-08:00

hmmm let mi c....had work at 10 actually but dunno wat alex say the head office ppl going t come tday so had t come earlier which was 9.hate it cos i cant get up 1.haha....then did house keeping so damn tired then uncle came yay goody haha......was gettin bored haha.......then i left ltr on tgt wif uncle at like 9 smth..haha....dunno la had alot of things t do sian la....i feel old body aching sia..haha...sorry influnence....

2009-02-11T09:24:00.000-08:00

ok tday wake up super tired man.i gt rdy all 4 work usual time but the amazing thing i gt t work early.haha...took ma own sweet time walk up all.then aunty ask was like wah tday so early ah i look at ma watch nd c 2 mins early only -_- haha...i ask whr gt early then aunty say cos i always late ma.haha...uncle laugh.so mean.then victoria came at 10 plus cannot come work at 9 cos traffice jam but cn go mac eat breakfast haha...wif her bf somemore.look like ah beng sia...haha no offfence.work was so boring was so sleepy.toopid cat came while i was reading ma newspaper.steven nd gang oso came ltr on.haha.....gave uncle the watch he kept askin so many qns.so i avoided him nd it became like catching he was aft mi nd i running away.gt scared by 2 ppl unle nd aunty.scary sia.then every1 left nd we started going crazy again.haa....uncle brought mi ice cream 1 melted so he brought another whee...so happy ICE CREAM!!HEEHEE.....ma love.then the regular disturb disturb all.haha then i bullied 1 of them haha well he let mi.i suppose t work til 5 only but then decided t ot til like 7 then 8 in the end i punched at 8.30 but i left at 11... haha...ohoh nd i brought cigarettes 4 1 of them so cool rite!!haha....they were realli goofy tday.it seem like they always come nd ask 4 mi.aaww thankz guy.hahathen they played para para uncle play 2 so funny.galant say he nvr play be4 but he pro la then kept entertainin mi..sweet sweet fella.a bunch of nice fella.haha....funny la..tday was so much fun.i love timezone....hee came home straight use com.dint even bother t eat but damn hungry sia.nvm tmr moring then eat la.....haha.......sunny bully mi la.uhhuuhh....it ok shall make ma aim t be hot nd sexy...hahaa...chey.dun care....am gna work on 14 of feb.but its ok cn earn.wth rite i noe i noe but it will be fun.i bet u the num guyz gna disturb haha....funny siao ppl jus hope no 1 chops mi.enuf ah wif the chop.nd i realli scare 4 ma bdae dunno wat they up 2 la....i tell u the whole wk i no need go work haha.no use the nxt time i go they will still do....aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh......die!!tired nd body aching fr all the basketball playing.i dint noe i was tat gd...nt bad nt bad bel bel...haha ok then gna turn in nw.tmr gt lots of things.nitez peeps.

2009-02-10T09:13:00.000-08:00

hmmm...tday lets c.was sort of planning our party thingy.nt sure how its gna work but ok.hahaha....no matter wat i wna enjoy ma bdae tis yr nd nth is gna spoil it.yup then hmm....nth much le tday very boring.watch tv then use com lo then went t work pussy cat was thr stupid.then like so many ppl so i jus decided t clean clean lo.i was working nite wif victoria nd aunty.die la how t u noe.. so hard .then tat golden monkey go tell aunty abt all uncle business, ass sia.nd nw ma 10 buckz is sitting at timezone drawer shit la!!!then i played max tune wif them nd i 1st against 3 of them.haha....yay....oh ya oh ya....then aunty ask t go change money yay ma favourite.went the normal places lo. the num guy so nice haha..i hav no idea y they like t disturb but fun.haha...cool cool!oh oh then i saw them again on the train on the way home!i use try waving t them everytime i walk pass but somehow the ppl insid always look diff!!heeehee....anyway talked t victoria,a lit weird nd guess wat it seem like she alr has a bf but she knows nth abt him wat a realationship wat man.on top of tat she dun even noe when she went on nd how long it has been.her exact words jus hav relationship 4 fun cos i noe they dun last.wth rite.then y bother dun even need t go on wat dumb....sigh wat is the world coming t.ppl say i love u oso nw like usual ramdom words then wat is the importance of it.its losing it value.sigh sigh wat a world we leave in.ok nw i wan t slp bye bye!!stay tune.:)

ohoh 1 more thing tis song is dedicated t every1 who may concern.thank you 4 everything!!nd love u guyz!!!

2009-02-09T21:38:00.000-08:00

heya....bored...tday is the day tat i befall upon smth bad so guess wat parents make mi stay home t prevent anything fr happening so yup guess i am struck at home.at least i hav ma comcom..haha yay... hurray.....OHOH 1 GREAT NEWS I GT INTO NYP BM YEsssSSSSsss........so glad i dun have t end up in RP so so glad nd thankful i was so anxious nd scare but i did it.even if it was nt wat i realli wanted but close enuf.i realli wanted accounting nd finance but tis will do 2.kiran say if i do well by the 1st sem i can switch t accounting nd finance alr.yayay...whhooo!!!i was so glad tat i even teared haha.....so let mi c wat i did tday.i chat nd chat nd looked 4 designs 4 ma dresses nd suit 4 preetipal engagement.yup....then i took like some quizess nd i guess some of them r truth like :

you are funny:)

People like you as soon as they see you! You look sincere and trust worthy!

if your a girl your name is:Sachiko if your a guy your name is:Sanyu

Sachiko means happiness and child so even if your not a kid you somtimes tend to act like one but its one of your best features! And Sanyu means happiness so you have a good attitude and everyone loves that about you!

Lovely Lady

You are lovely and caring. You help others and spread out a lot of sympathy. Your life aim maybe is to serve the people. But your weakness is that you forget about yourself, your own needs. All your time is hold back for your friends and family. You are always there for people in trouble. Ready for any emergency. You make a lot of sacrifices just to be a good human. But every woman has her needs, her longings and a destiny. Don't loose yourself in work or curing other people's souls. You will have your own problems in your life. Another problem is that you don't say your opinion when it's right and important to say it. People trample onto your soul if you are always so kind and lovely and helpful. They will play on you. Though you should try to relax more and enjoy your life, you should not loose the gift that was given to you to help others . Not everyone is created this way... You are uniqe and rare!

2009-02-08T23:50:00.000-08:00

whheeeeeee..........sun yea rite.still upset ab yst.nt talkin t any1 accept kiran.woke up ppl were either slpin or out.so i kinda had the hse t maself then eileen was still bugging mi abt her stupid modelling.its ok wateva man.kiran gt wat awhile ltr nd we gt rdy nd left t go 4 the singtel thing.the jasprit gal kiran was talkin abt was jappi oh gd wth.fish her man.we biked thr nd like when i gt off then took out the helmet nd did the whole hair fling thing u watch in the movies,it was awesome but i realise every1 was staring.haha...super hot.haha!!had t listen t the guy speech then i gt posted t mustafa centra while kiran t 115 dunlop so sad dint get t work tgt.but its ok.no pro i am indenpendent yea rite.haha....then met tis gal chery kiran calls her barbie doll haha..funny.she was realli nice.well we r a clique.haha....a mini 1.i figured the guys thr dint noe i understood chinese.haha....well i understood every word they said.they r funny nd crazy ppl nd they jus scold the blangclah jus like tat haha...then they boss them arnd nd all it was fun.it was like u r paid jus t sit thr nd register tats all.nice easy money.haha...ohoh i saw harry.he was gna help a fren like last yr 4 thipusam.ooowww....the sweetest fella.haha.....the ppl thr were all realli nice i guess accept the 1 nxt t mi.ass...the other 1 looked kinda familar.yea...it closed quite early.while every1 was closing cheryl nd i jus stood thr nd talked cos we had no idea wat t do nd it was like all the guys doing.haha...had t wait 4 kiran t come bak.every1 was coming bak 1 by 1.kiran frens oso 1 by all the goofy idiot were coming bak.well it seems kavin has been working thr for 3 yrs wow so long man.haha....aft tat kiran biked mi home then he left 4 came.haha...drive safely k.ah wateva he nvr listens so yea.....ooooo cheryl say kiran looks bad boyish.yuckz but oooooooo..rite i noe i am crazy:)eeeee 1 more thing jappi tat betch calls kiran her bf.eeewww pls...last time so bitchy t mi abt sunther all nw y so nice.yuck dun disgust mi.trying t play nice infront of him i will c he listens t mi or u!!pls.. get a life man nd stay away fr him if nt......watch out!!

2009-02-07T23:57:00.000-08:00

sigh.....bad bad day...in the mornin had work....reached slighty late like 17 mins late,but wateva.was ok wif it cos ltr jus stay long cos gt uncle.he suppose t come in at 10 but dint.tried contacing him no reply.he sort of went mia the whole time til like 4 smth he replied smth had happen nd he cld nt come.felt realli bad 4 him,i hope everything is alrite wif his son.hmm stayed at work til like 6 so i like overtime 1 hr.haha..wow so much rite.haha!!then at the same time eileen la gt modelling gt tis gt tat.its ok nvm.then ruched down 4 the singtel training but guess wat i waited 4 1 hr 4 kiran.toopid then the training was so dumb jus learn how t key in the details nd scan the doc.haha any dumb person i think noe how t do.ha.....then i gt a msg fr sweets suddenly wna mit up.ha was so happy cn go mit him.so rite aft the training papa nd mummy came nd fetch mi then brought 4 mi food.came home quickly quickly ate then wanted t leave go mit him but dunno wat went wrong mummy nd papa suddenly dint let mi out of the hse.i dint noe wat t do.they lock the padlock nd all.i normally shout bak but i dun tink time i jus cried nd beg t leave jus tis once he was waiting 4 mi,i dint wna leave him thr.i felt realli bad.then thr was the window idea,be4 i climbeb out i alr saw papa standing thr i was cornered.i thought y r they doing tis dun i deserve ma own freedom once in a while wat more i am 18 tis yr.i am old enuf t tak care of maself.ahhh... realli pissing off.aft tat i lock maself wif the com nd kinda cried..like alot i duno tears kept welling up in ma eyes...haha. yup i noe tears nd mi dun go along..cos i am always laughing nd smiling..but i am nt a cry baby. i jus tink i deserve more aft changing alot nd leaving who eva they ask mi 2.i realli felt bad 4 him nd i realli wanted t go.he was ok wif it,he wasnt angry nd i tld him i wld repay bak big time.kept saying sorry t him though.hahaha....i was alr feelin so upset she cn still come nd irratate mi nd it realli pissed mi off alot.well all i cn say u were talking t at the wrong time so tat is wat u get.deal wif it!!ok no la sorry jus kiddin.but cos i wasnt in the gd mood.will make it up k babe:)

out

2009-02-06T09:05:00.000-08:00

Its 6 of feb still feels kinda far fr ma bdae.sigh....anyway tday suppose t either go over t eileen place of go watch lucky by chance wif sandy but she cld nt make it nd was 2 lazy 2 go over t eileen place so far.SO in the end we went t bugis.oh nd i was feeling realli sick but hey who cares i hav limited off days t hang man.eileen needed t do her nails so 1st thing 1st do eileen nails then we went t watch underworlds rise of the lycans.while in the quene i realise it was m18 then i ask eileen go away nd i brought the tickets nd trick the lady at the counter.haha cool we gt t watch it.haha....i was confused though aft the movie no idea wat happen.haha.then went down t orchand t mit mimi we gt free neoprint.ohyaohya...saw angelica.she looked pwetty.ha..sh tld mi wow u look grown up.hey i dint used t look tat kidy k.eh it wasnt tat bad.haha....yup then we went over t *scape park thr t eat seafood.we kinda wanted t be in our girly group/besties group t sit down nd talk but nooonooo......derek had t come.nd yup he looked at us eat,like xtra.haahaa...it was kinda cheap.haha....i shld so learn t peel prawns man.haha...mi nd mimi were struggling t peel the prawns haha...mimi walked bak wif mi t ma here then took bus 67 bak.along the way all we talked.haha......i miss kamal,lit fella.i miss the nummy guys.haha guess wat la leslies gna be a num guy i tink.yup but anyway he say he gna help mi.nd harry is the sweetest guy eva eva.....ma poor dear.but 1 thing is 4 sure I AM SO NT DESPERATE.PlS!!Ma tis yr plan.have fun enjoy study hard.play hard study hard.make tons of frenz no getting att nd clubbin nd partying.enjoy life nd wat it has t offer.yup wat is life without the enjoyment.understood!!good.but for nw excuses mi wna slp alr.enjoy tmr nw time t slp.tata nd im out.

another day

2009-02-05T08:49:00.000-08:00

hmmmm......let mi c tday as usual nth much ba.eileen nd mimi suppose t mit mi at 12 but like i guessed all late.mimi reached like 5 sec be4 eileen.haha...they reached abt 1.30 nd mi nd mimi had like work at like 3.so we decided t jus stay in ma hse nd jus talk.i still havent tld them abt the the 'thing' yet i dunno if i shld or nt.but the truth is i am realli realli very scare,afraid nd fear 4 anything wld happen.nd like i said i dun wan t hurt any1 speacially those arnd mi.STRESS!!

yup continuing....tat ass was online but he dint bother talkin t mi so fine i will do the same.i am an independent strong smart young lady who needs him man.u go gal!!haha....sorry high alr.anyway yup we talked and t listened t music used the com nd then amelia started rebonding her hair.then eileen tied 2 pony tails 4 mi.i looked like a bimbo cheerleader la..haha....kinda cute at the same time kinda funny.haha but alot of ppl said i look cute or adorable then thr were other like i look like a rabbit(dun ask i realli hav no idea y).mi nd mimi went t work late obviously.then as usual work,uncle serectary.lame nd lots of laughter added..haha then we had t clear the redemption counter slowly cos they wanted t fix stupid lights thr.yup...lots of work sia.nd i realise ayu very violent.nd n is weird somehow he freaks mi out.hahaha.....i tink tats all,actualli i cant realli rmb much haha.....rite cos its mi...i tired la so cant reaalli tink straight.thk gd i off tmr but i hav no idea wat the plan is.nw i scare 4 posting.

underneath that smile

2009-02-04T21:42:00.001-08:00

4th of feb....wow its alr ma bdae month but yet ma bdae seem so far away.the thing is i aint tat all excited tis yr abt it nd i hav no idea y.jus realli dun hav the mood.well maybe cos so far tis yr hasnt been the great 4 mi.lotz of things hav been going on.the thing abt mi is tat i dun wna burden any1 abt ma pro or make it seem like i am the needy 1.i am the kind tat ma pros r mine nd i will go through it maself,the rest ard mi deserve t be happy nd even if u r nt i will make it be.TO THOSE ARND MI,I WILL ALWAYS LOV E U ND PROTECT U ND IF ANYTIME ANYWHERE U NID MI,JUS BUZZ ND I WILL BE THERE IN A JIFFY.i laugh alot till ma stomach hurt nd other having tearing fr 2 much laughter,truth fact i wna cry ma heart out.but its ok i am strong i tink.haha well i mean i guess its jus ma life.gosh i feel alot of pressure.kinda scare of life nd fate.well heck,life come wat may man.

ANYWAY,tday work again.suppose t mit yuresh in the morning t hav breakfast cos i cant rmb who say tat havent met in a while so yup.but yuresh msg in the morning nd said smth happen in his family nd cld nt make it.so instead tld eileen t come mit mi.i needed help wif some tech stuff kinda embarrassing t say so i shall skip.haha...stupid alex was thr when i reached.then he was like oh wow u r in shoes again great news..siao.fish him la.then all pretend t clean clean all til he left.then eileen came,we went 4 a long long break nd talk talk all.suppose t go bak early t help uncle wif the deco for the bdae party.but ooppss.......heee ma num guys werent working tday.sad sia.cannot wash eyes.haha.....did i jus say tat out loud.opppsss....hahaha by the time i gt bak ayu was alr thr.damn........then i jus realise tat victoria gal works at hogs cafe 2 omg.crazy...even though i am doing 2 jobs 2 but nt tat bad.whateva.i was actualli hoping the bdae boy had like a hot elder bro but nooo.....disappointed.ha then i was made t give out the balloons which i completed sucessfully seein tat i was kinda scare of it busting.yup.uncle nd naz kept wanting t bust the balloon.big bullies la.we were tempted by the many many boxes of pizza they ordered or we decided t get 2 haha...then had t clean up all.guess wat they offered ur their cake nd pizza 2.how nice of them.thr were still like abt 24 more days t ma bdae but i alr gt smashed by cake tday nd they said tis,"this is just the preview."OMG DANGEROUS!!!dun worry i am nt avaliable on ma bdae.heeeheee i am save ok maybe nt quite but its gd t tink +ve.haha.....its ok kinda fun tday...i have no idea y but i kept hurting maself accidentally.maybe eileen nd amelia clumsliness r rubbing off on mi,jus hope the "dumbness" wont rub off on mi.dun wan..haha if u noe wat i mean.haha.... but like ya its realli painful.poor mi:(ohoh saw joshua yeo tday jus be4 closing.i tink he looked betta in pics then in person.well its some1 eye candy so i am nt suppose t say anything bad.haha....ok la i guess i will jus stop here then am realli bumped.take carez peers!!adidos nd i am OUT!!:)